Xin Ke smiled wryly with complicated feelings. After living together for more than 20 years, how could she think that Yong Ye's past would be happy? No matter how optimistic people are, they can't think that way, right?

The living habits that have always been there, as well as the reluctant smile from the beginning, to the smile that made her feel a little empty no matter what, there is no way for people to judge his past too optimistically.

Even with the passage of time, he showed an unexpected side that was very gentle to himself, and laughed from time to time, but no matter what... only that feeling of emptiness that made Xinke feel quite unsightly, even extremely disgusting, unpleasant... just like a black flame. , always in the depths of his pupils.

I'm afraid it's a relationship that is revealed from the hollow in his heart. He has always had an indescribable dark light in his eyes. Since the first meeting, even though it has been more than 20 years, there is still no sign of it. Change, there is no way to keep her from caring about it.

"...Since you are mentally prepared to listen to bad stories...I think about it, where should I tell it better? The fortress that was on the battlefield for the first time? Or the armored train...No, I'll skip this one..."

It’s too long to talk from beginning to end, and it was too embarrassing to go to the battlefield for the first time. He also didn’t want to talk about it very much. In fact, he didn’t remember it very clearly. It was just an outline. He could only remember vague things. It was embarrassing at the time.

In the long life, it seems inconvenient to find a good entry point, but in fact, he did not intend to talk about it in detail. There are only a few impressive pictures that are too detailed.

If you have to organize your life experience, summarize it briefly.

At the very beginning, after his heroic dream was shattered by war and cruel reality, he seemed to be shrouded in darkness in that fragmented apocalyptic world, living like a walking corpse, with only loneliness and hopeless pain always by his side.

Licking the blood, chewing regret, being played with by God in the name of fate, repeatedly being pushed to the end of despair, tainted with the blood of oneself and others.

He was strong enough, strong enough to survive alone without relying on anyone. But he was equally cowardly, and just kept escaping death because of cowardice.

Even though he couldn't even see the shadow of the target of revenge, he kept struggling to survive, trying to find a way to keep himself alive, just for the reason of living... He sacrificed countless lives.

I have been doing the same thing over and over again in the past, how can I get rid of it now?

The tender memory made him painful, and what had been lost and what had been given up was found little by little with the passage of time and everything that happened.

There are too many things in the world that make him nostalgic, but he just brings unnecessary troubles to the gentle things.

He has no regrets about what he has done, because even regret is useless, but every time he stands up, he is destined to be accompanied by suffering, once again falling to the bottom of hell, and continuing this endless end.

Confused, wandering endlessly on the empty land, and spending a long and lonely time in the dark underground.

In a collapsed world, there is no dawn, there is no hope, a person is at the end of the earth, watching the future without an end... This kind of thing is unbearable even if it is just a memory, of course... What he can't bear is nothing else.

He himself is fine, he can also endure all this, but he is unwilling to pay attention to the existence of what he has encountered, unfortunately, at that time...

... He has no way to fight, that power that is completely beyond God, even if he is much stronger than before, but in front of that power beyond imagination, it is still not worth mentioning.

It was like that in the past, and I'm afraid it will be difficult to make much changes in the future, at least...he doesn't have that kind of spare power at all.

When Yong Ye finished talking, talked about his past, and told him what he would face, the helplessness he faced, and what he needed to do and was waiting for him to do, although the room lost its voice, But the atmosphere gradually became extremely depressing.

At the moment when he got why Yong Ye insisted on rejecting him, Xin Ke seemed to hear the voice of his feelings being frozen, and there was no process of raising it up and letting it go. The simple story always maintained a dark ending.

Every world is a passer-by. Even if something beautiful happened, there is an idea left by hope, but there must be no way to realize it. In the face of arrogant and unreasonable forces, weak forces are completely unable to form resistance, and can't refuse... Across dimensions The terrifying force of countercurrent to the entire world's time made the scorching emotions at the boiling point reach the freezing point of freezing in an instant.

"...So that's the case. It's better to be alone in this case, um...Understandable. Given the character of your elder brother, I would feel very strange if it wasn't like this."

Xinke muttered to herself, saying words she understood and agreed with, and nodded lightly. In her opinion, Yong Ye would choose this, which was really in line with his style.

"People who can't even protect themselves, what should they use to protect others? Don't look at me like this, in fact, I need to do a lot of things. I really have no energy. If you like me, it will only be bad luck. That's right, so...sorry, get married or something, let's find a girl you like."

Having said that, Yong Ye sighed slightly, and a lonely smile appeared on the corner of his mouth unconsciously.

"If you really grow up and get married, and I am still alive, I will definitely find a way to go to the scene and bless you in the corner."

"Idiot~! I don't want your blessing! My wedding brother must be the hero! And why is it a corner~?"

"After all, you are a forest elves. It's not good for me to show up openly, and look at me, people like me are not suitable to show up in a place like the wedding hall, right?"

Yong Ye's life is constantly faced with challenges and setbacks. At the same time, his hands are covered with blood and sin, and the sacred marriage hall is extremely unsuitable for him.

If it's someone else's wedding, it doesn't matter, if it's his sister, it's better for him not to disrupt the situation and spoil the atmosphere, um... If he doesn't even give a corner, he'll still be a little sad, after all, he seems to really treat Xinke sister.

For more than 20 years, let's get into the drama too deeply... He himself can't laugh.

"...Brother, why do you like to belittle yourself so much~?"

Xin Ke took a deep breath, tried hard to stabilize her mood, and said sternly.

"No... I'm not belittling myself, right? Normal people can't want a criminal to go when they get married, right?"

"Having said that, but the problem is not only this, you actually thought that you were not attractive and did not have the element of being liked~?"

As if looking at something incredible, Xin Ke's purple eyes widened.

"Are you kidding me~? It's not funny at all~"

"No... I'm talking very seriously: can talk, be polite, elegant, have a good reputation, outgoing, positive and cheerful, gentle and kind, humorous, sincere. Most of the people who are liked by girls have these, right? And myself I also know how I am, such as..."

Shaking his head with a wry smile, Yong Ye confessed that as far as he was referring, he knew from girls when he was a teacher, what kind of people girls like.

"...I don't know how to say nice things, and I can't keep talking when I chat; I don't care about the so-called etiquette at all, I have eaten mice and eaten raw, and I can't be polite and elegant at all; I don't care about my reputation anywhere. It's not very good, it's basically notorious in the true sense; it's not sunny at all, and it's often gloomy to death, there is no so-called cheerfulness; gentleness and kindness on me is just a bad mockery; humor or something, you think I might Is there? Sincerity or something... Although I like to say that I never lie, you also know what I did to you the first time I saw you..."

In this room with only two people, Yong Ye counted his own shortcomings, and he felt a little depressed every time he said one. During this process, Xin Ke just listened silently, learned silently, and did not interrupt.

And when Yong Ye said the end, he stopped when he was almost finished, came back to his senses, patted his head and smiled wryly.

"I don't have to scold me for what I'm doing?... Then, what are you talking about, Xinke? I'm embarrassed if you don't say a word like this..."

"What do you want me to say~?"

"...Well, it doesn't seem to be anything. It just feels that if you don't speak, the atmosphere is not very good."

"Does my brother have a tendency to self-loathing~?"

"This... no? I like myself very much, I love myself more than anyone else, otherwise how would I survive?"

Yes, if you don't like yourself, why let yourself live? Such a difficult life, if you hate yourself, where is the value of living?

Yongye tried to reject Xinke's words for this reason.

Xin Ke exhaled slightly, but then smiled with the corners of his mouth upturned.

"Big brother, there really is self-loathing. People don't need to like themselves to live. There can be many other reasons. Just to live for the sake of living is a reason to live. Also, big brother really thinks about you. Are those elements mentioned all that are pleasing?"

"...Generally speaking, is that the case?"

"No... or I actually don't understand. After all, I like cute girls~"

"...Then what else did you say?"

"But I think my elder brother is full of elements that can be liked. After all, being strong is the best thing to attract the opposite sex. Even if I am a girl, I am strong, so many girls like me~!"

"...You're really as...narcissistic as ever?"

"How is it possible, I am confident."