Xie Qingcheng was blind in one eye.

After he cooperated to complete the investigation related to this case, he went to Aesthetic Education for an examination.

Superimposed together, he eventually completely damaged the optic nerve in his left eye, and it is difficult to recover.

Xie Qingcheng listened calmly, he said that he did not shed any tears.

The Dean paused and looked at his almost bloodless lips and eyes that couldn't see any light. "There are tears that don't come out. But that doesn't mean they don't exist, or even never stop," he said.

"What you said is very mysterious."

"Only you know in your heart whether what I'm saying is true."

Xie Qingcheng no longer spends any more time with him. He seemed too lazy to argue with anyone now. Like a stubborn old man, he went home alone without a word.

Afraid of his sadness, Xie Xue and Wei Dongheng, Aunt Li and Team Zheng... They all visited him and tried to comfort him.

But Xie Qingcheng was very calm, as if it was not his eyes that had lost the light.

He remembered that He Yu had said that his eyes were very good-looking, maybe He Yu really hated him when he left, took one of his eyes, and his eyes became casual The blood-red roses he left.

He Yu picked this rose.

It's not a bad thing, if he likes it.

Xie Qingcheng thought and closed his eyes tiredly.

He is more tired now than before, maybe the string that has been tight for twenty years has finally loosened.

Now, he has found the answer, Wei Rong was sentenced to prison and chose a day, no surprise, it was the death penalty. In He Yu's information, he identified the one in the city bureau who has been giving Wei Rong The **** police officer of the city bureau who was the protective umbrella with Huang Zhilong and others, through the evidence collected secretly by Team Zheng for a long time, all three certificates were obtained, the big protective umbrella was dropped, and the double regulations were taken into custody. The Ministry of Public Security located the Mandela Island through the information left by He Yu at the end, intercepted many valid materials, and prepared to conduct a raid on Duan Wen's nest.

The names of those who sacrificed were rectified, and the tombstones entered the Martyrs Park.

Every unwillingness seems to have come to an end. The darkness of the past seems to be waiting for the light one after another.

But why is he so tired...

It seems that he has unloaded his burden and lost his goal, as if suffering from snow blindness, his eyes and mind gradually become blank - the only meaning of his life now is to organize those works for Qin Ciyan.

flame.

The resin is made of resin, and there is no temperature.

The little fire dragon that can only give him a little warmth is gone.

Xie Qingcheng later went to the sealed He's house by himself, stood at the gate of the iron gate with the seal and looked inside for a long time, it was autumn, and the endless summer in the villa courtyard had already begun When he was dying, the big lawn he and He Yu met when they first met had not been built for a long time, and it was already showing obvious fatigue.

Xie Qingcheng heard someone call him: "Doctor Xie."

But when she turned her head, there was no one.

He went to the school playground again. At this time, it was summer vacation. There was no one on the campus. He was the only one sitting in the stands in the huge stadium.

He remembered how He Yu grinned brightly after running a thousand meters on the playground before they broke up.

"Xie Qingcheng, come to see my competition, I will give you the first place."

He heard his voice again, it was clearer than when he was at the door of the villa. He turned his head to the side and couldn't see anyone, and when he turned to look at the plastic runway, he seemed to see He Yu A figure running around in a circle.

He ran so hard, as if he could catch up with the company he wanted, the dream.

One lap…two laps…

Xie Qingcheng looked at the empty playground, he really wanted He Yu to stop, stop going forward so foolishly, stop insisting...

There is no road ahead, He Yu.

The sea is in front of you, don’t go…

You don't go.

In a daze, a janitor came over and told him that the stadium was going to be cleared, and the campus would not be open at night.

Xie Qingcheng realized that it was already dark.

He picked up a taxi and was supposed to go home, but when the driver asked where he was going, he slowly said the name of the jazz bar on the Bund.

Xie Qingcheng has never been to a bar alone in his life.

This is the first time.

He returned to the tavern that seemed to have traveled from Europe a hundred years ago, and sat where he and He Yu sat before. The jazz band played the same song day in and day out, and he listened to it as if the happiest day of his life was coming back to life.

The old man on stage is singing love you hate you, ask if you know?

He listened with a smile in the shadow of wine and lights.

It's strange that he can still laugh. He raised his hand to support Yi, and the dim yellow light fell into his eyes.

It's strange, his vision in only one eye that can see things is also declining day by day, but how can he see a boy walking outside so clearly.

It was He Yu, 13 or 14 years old, holding an ID card that did not belong to him, deceived the waiter by his height and aura, and sat down in front of the bar calmly and familiarly. With bright eyes, he watched the jazz band on the stage singing that familiar old song. At the end of the song, he laughed and clapped his hands gently.

I see you.

Ask if you know…

I hear you.

Do you know?

Sir, may I ask you to do a dance?

Xie Qingcheng looked at him for a long time, after a long time, Xie Qingcheng, who had been drinking until his eyes were completely red, whispered to him: "...Sorry, it was me who hurt about you…"

Sorry…

I killed you myself.

Did you know?

If you knew the future on that day, would you still dance this song together?

Sorry…He Yu…

Sorry…

He lowered his blurry and wet eyes and raised them again. He wanted to take another look at He Yu's gentle smile.

But the surroundings were dark, and there was nothing in front of him.

A large area of ​​darkness.

Only one Endless Summer flower fell in the darkness and touched the ground.

When Xie Qingcheng woke up, he found himself lying in the nursing ward of the Meiyu Private Hospital.

He slowly realized that he should have passed out in the Jazz Bar, and was sent to the hospital by the enthusiastic citizens. It is estimated that other hospitals can't accept his physical condition, and finally he went around and sent it back to Meiyu.

Xie Xue fell asleep beside his bed, her eyes swollen like a pink walnut because she cried.

She is now pregnant, pregnant women need a good rest, but she can't do it, these days, the media has exposed too many things, and there are some things that the media can't expose, she also learned from Wei Jiahe The police knew about the situation.

Things that she could not understand no matter what, have become very clear these days.

She was so distressed that she couldn't describe it in words, but she couldn't do anything, she could only accompany her brother as much as possible - she hoped that her brother could still feel life from her of warmth.

Since he was sent to the hospital in a coma, she held his hand night after night, the fingers were very cold, like a dead person.

Wei Dongheng felt distressed and came to persuade her to sleep, but he was guarding, but she cried.

She held Xie Qingcheng's hand and looked back at Wei Dongheng helplessly, she choked up: "How can I not be warm... How can I not be warm to him..."

.

The tone is gone now.

His blood was as cold as the one who died for him.

Xie Xue hugged him tightly, put her forehead on his shoulder, her face was full of tears: "Brother..."

Wei Dongheng couldn't persuade her, so she cried and fell asleep beside Xie Qingcheng's bed.

When Xie Qingcheng woke up, his throat was dry and he couldn't make a sound. He looked at Xie Xue's sleeping face for a while, then raised his finger and touched her hair lightly.

Xie Xue suddenly woke up: "...Brother?!"

There is no one else in the ward, Xie Qingcheng slowed down for a while, and said to Xie Xue: "...Why are you falling asleep here. Where is Wei Dongheng?"

"He went to buy breakfast." Xie Xue wiped her eyes and hurriedly held Xie Qingcheng's hand, "Brother, how are you? Do you feel better? I'll call a doctor for you …”

She said a lot of things like pouring beans.

Xie Qingcheng looked at her, but only said one sentence: "You now know a lot of things." It wasn't even a question.

Xie Xue was dumbfounded, then lowered her eyelids and nodded.

She was holding back her emotions, but she didn't hold back for too long. Suddenly, she cried, she fell into Xie Qingcheng's arms, and she kept asking him: "Brother ...it hurts, doesn't it...you hurt...doesn't it..."

"...I'm fine."

"You lied..." Xie Xue paused, then burst into tears. "You're lying! I know you're sad because of He Yu's death, and I'm also... I'm sad too... But you can't go on like this... You can't go on like this, bro...!"

She cried, and her tears fell down: "I know you hurt when he's gone... You can't even see your eyes... But... But please... Don't do this again... "

"Don't lie to us and say it's okay... Don't lie to us and say it's okay... Your body is dying, your organs are about to fail, I know it! I know everything! "

Xie Qingcheng was speechless and looked at her in amazement.

After a while, the light in the only eye he could see clearly also gradually dimmed.

"The dean told you?"

Xie Xue wiped her tears and nodded.

Xie Qingcheng was silent for a long time, and finally only smiled lightly at his pain: "What is it?"

He has had enough for a life where He Yu never had anything.

In his view, this pain is not enough to mention.

But Xie Xue trembled, completely in disbelief, she looked at her brother, as if thinking he was crazy: "What is it? Nian, how painful are you..."

How much pain does he have over the years?

Piece together the broken body back.

Bearing the pain of the murder of her parents alone, but covering her sister's eyes to prevent her from knowing these sins, it is precisely because of his protection that she grew up carefree, healthy and happy, And he endured all the darkness.

It hurts along the way.

The wife left him.

The teacher is gone.

I have endured the pain for more than 20 years, and I cannot tell anyone.

It was not until yesterday that Xie Xue saw Xie Qingcheng's treatment room in Meiyu. It was the old dean who finally couldn't stand her plea after she and Wei Dongheng knew a lot of things , while Xie Qingcheng was still in a coma, I took her to see it.

In that cold treatment room - cold iron, cold water, restraints, metal beds, the only thing that can communicate with the outside world is the emergency call bell.

Although the dean talked about rn-13, he did not tell her the secret of the first emperor. He only vaguely described Xie Qingcheng's mental Ebola disease and the pain during treatment.

But that's enough. Xie Xue finally burst into tears in the treatment room, kneeling on the ground, weeping.

How painful... how painful he is!

Find a treatment that activates the mind and delays organ failure.

" Xie Qingcheng did this, on the one hand, he wanted to develop medicines for Qin Rongbei, on the other hand, only by doing so would he have the energy, and he could reconsider and restore the things Qin Ciyan left behind during his lifetime Fragments of notes. Those things are very precious medical information, he knew it could save many lives, but he didn't keep it well, and someone destroyed his teacher's last thing. When he told me about this, he said that he Live in guilt all the time."

Xie Xue finally stood up under Wei Dongheng's support and hug.

Although she was so sad, she bowed to the dean and said, "I'm sorry, dean... I know that my brother's income cannot support such a high treatment fee. He's done so much, this money... we can give it all now, I'm sure—"

Before she could finish her words, the dean waved his hand quickly: "The founders of this hospital are me and Lao Qin. When Lao Qin died, the hospital was in chaos. The business was difficult, and it was impossible to turn around. It was your brother who found me and donated the hundreds of thousands of savings he had accumulated over the years to the hospital. How could I be so embarrassed to ask for your money? Where do I put my face? "

Xie Xue was taken aback.

"He...he...that—that time..." Her face became whiter and paler, and she suddenly realized why when Xie Qingcheng and Li Rouqiu divorced, Xie Qingcheng gave everything she could give to Li Ruoqiu Now, and never said anything bad about Li Rouqiu, let alone Xie Xue talking about her cheating.

When he donated the money to Lao Qin's hospital, he hadn't divorced Li Rouqiu yet. And with his character, it is absolutely impossible for him to hide his wife taking money without authorization.

Xie Xue blurted out: "Did he come alone?"

"No." The dean said, "He came with his then wife, Ms. Li. Both of them signed the donation form..."

Xie Xue was stunned, tears welling up in her eyes again.

For so many years... She always thought that her brother was afraid of losing face, so she refused to say that his wife was cheating, and she did not consider his wife to be at fault for divorce. But it turned out...because Xie Qingcheng couldn't forget what Li Rouqiu supported him at that time.

"He probably didn't talk to her too much. Mrs. Li only knew that he felt guilty because Yi Beihai's mother passed the medical case to Lao Qin through Xie Qingcheng. She was with him. When she went out to smoke, she asked me if her husband had a good relationship with Lao Qin? I said no." The dean said, "I have no regrets after asking her. If she doesn't want to, she doesn't have to donate at all. She waited for this money for a long time, and finally said that she would donate it, it was a good thing, after all, she has been with his husband and wife for so many years..."

The more Xie Xue listened, the more emotional she became.

She never thought it would be like this...

Li Rouqiu didn't love Xie Qingcheng at that time, but Xie Qingcheng didn't know that, he was very slow emotionally... As for Li Rouqiu, Xie Xue always thought that Li Rouqiu was greedy to the extreme, derailed and divorced, She also had to take away the last remaining money from their family... But she had no idea that Li Rouqiu was not so bad at heart, and she did not set any obstacles for Xie Qingcheng to accomplish what he wanted to accomplish most at that time.

So many years of savings, she promised him to donate it.

She doesn't love him anymore, she blames him for being too wooden and unemotional, she even cheated...

Li Rouqiu gave Xie Qingcheng all the support. She already knew in her heart that that was the last thing she could do for him as his wife.

Presumably later, Xie Qingcheng finally knew the mentality that was almost guilt compensation when she signed the donation agreement.

He is such a strong person, how embarrassing should he be...

No one wants him anymore. One by one, they walked away from him, leaving behind unsolved cases, remorse, guilt, and pity.

At this moment, Xie Xue hugged Xie Qingcheng, tears kept rolling down: "Brother... how much pain you have... these twenty years... how much pain you have!"

Xie Qingcheng felt the warmth, but it was strange that the warmth could no longer flow into his heart.

He patted Xie Xue lightly on the back, and a voice came out of his hoarse throat: "I'm fine."

"The pain is gone..."

He didn't lie to her.

His heart died with He Yu.

And where will the dead feel pain.

When Wei Dongheng came back, Xie Qingcheng had just appeased Xie Xue to pack up his emotions.

Wei Dongheng brought food for Xie Xue, Xie Qingcheng couldn't eat anything outside, so he and Wei Dongheng asked Xie Xue to drink all the porridge before going back have a good rest. Although Xie Xue wanted to stay here and watch Xie Qingcheng, but her fists were no match for four, especially one of them was her brother.

She had to sit beside her, her eyes were red and swollen, and she drank the porridge little by little.

Wei Dongheng looked at Xie Xue and Xie Qingcheng. He suddenly said, "Brother Xie, we have something we want to discuss with you."

Xie Qingcheng: "Tell me."

Wei Dongheng got up and said solemnly: "We... we want to take you to see a doctor in the United States, the dean told us that the state that originally developed rn-13 has the best Treatment equipment, I think... I think you are for Xie Xue, or for your unborn nephew..."

When he said this, his eyes were slightly red. Wei Dongheng is a very rough-hearted person, with very few soft sides, but at this moment, he endured the trembling in his voice before opening his mouth: "...We want...we want you to live, and we want to ask you not to Abandon yourself."

Xie Xue also raised her head, this was what she discussed with Wei Dongheng before, but before she had time to say it, she was even worried that she would not be able to speak, as soon as she spoke, her voice would be broken .

This is indeed the case. She swallowed the porridge and opened her mouth three or four times before she reluctantly made a crying plea: "Brother... can we find a way to live... if you go like this Now, I will be sad, you know I'm stupid, I can't take children, you live... Let's go to the treatment... Then you help me, you teach me how to take him, how to help him, how to comfort him ...you teach me little by little, just like you brought me up, okay..."

Xie Qingcheng did not say anything.

Xie Xue raised her hand and covered her eyes, wiping the tears from her eyelashes: "Brother...Please..."

"Now the case of my parents has been solved, and Sister Qin is gone. Only Grandpa Qin's books need you to continue sorting... Let's take it slow, okay... I can't live without you..."

I can't live without you.

Xie Qingcheng's heart trembled suddenly.

In fact, someone once said this to him, that person hugged him so hard at that time, and in the sea of ​​​​fire, hugged him ashes.

Xie Xue: "If you give up like this... He Yu knows, he will... He will also be sad... Brother... Think about He Yu... He has paid for these things. life, so... can you... can you not let him know and feel sad... bro..."

Xie Qingcheng slowly closed his eyes.

He knew in his heart, no.

Xie Xue didn't know the last call he had with He Yu, and she didn't know whether He Yu stepped into the trap set by someone whose heart was like stone.

He thought, if there really is another world, then when He Yu sees him again, he must also hate him.