Feng Wan waited outside the door, feeling uneasy. She didn't know how Ning Bai saw Lu Xiaodong. Why should he care about Lu Xiaodong's things... Did he know Lu Xiaodong before? Otherwise, why blame Lu Xiaodong for her?

No, no... Ning Bai has any reason to blame her for Lu Xiaodong?

The two of them have no intersection.

The reason why Ning Bai is so indifferent to himself must be blaming her for losing him. Lu Xiaodong was just an excuse.

At that time, she was still young, and she was less than thirty years old. She regarded love as more important than everything. She regarded Ning Bai as all her sustenance. She tried everything to restore her love and her family.

Unfortunately, she used the wrong way, so she lost her child.

This is a punishment for her.

Lu Maofeng did not dare to divorce her. In order to please her, she gave her a baby and brought it back, but this was not what she wanted at all.

No one can replace her Xiaobai.

Xiaobai is her only child.

Lu Xiaodong was just Lu Maofeng hugging her, did the man think that he would forget his fault? She will never forget!

Feng Wan knew she was careless about Lu Xiaodong, but she didn't feel sorry for the child.

She gave him food, dressed him, gave him money, and gave him the best of everything.

And she has no requirements for him... This child is not as good-looking as Xiaobai, as smart as Xiaobai, as sensible as Xiaobai, as well as as ignorant (color). He can’t even match Xiaobai’s one toe.

But he didn't ask him how good he is?

Without them, maybe the child is still living in an orphanage and living a worse life.

She believes that she is sincere to Lu Xiaodong.

There is nothing to say, because the child is not good at all, he doesn't learn well.

Feng Wan never took Lu Xiaodong to heart. She missed Ning Bai, her only son, for more than 20 years. Now she finally found him.

But Ning Bai refused to forgive her.

Feng Wanshen (color) is anxious.

At this moment, the door opened.

The man **** (color) stood there indifferently, the light amber (color) eyes looked at her, the calm **** (color) seemed to contain deep disappointment, and somehow he hated himself or her meaning.

Feng Wan suddenly felt a little uneasy. She always felt like something was wrong. She quickly stepped forward and said with a smile: "Xiao Bai, do you live at home tonight?"

Ning Bai didn't take anything, only took Lu Xiaodong's diary. He pinched the diary in his hand and looked down at Feng Wan lightly, "I won't come back."

There is no longer anything here that he misses.

Feng Wan was suddenly shocked (color), she looked at Ning Bai pale (color), begging: "Why? Mom really loves you, can't you give Mom a chance?"

Ning Bai looked at her, (chest xiong) was cold in his cavity, he didn't even want to say a word to her, but he finally spoke slowly: "Do you really love me?"

Do you love me or the child who can meet all your expectations and sustenance?

But when I let go of your hand, I gave up on you.

What you really should love is the child who still has expectations and hopes for your love.

Ning Bai (Thin Bao) pressed his lips tightly, but he didn't say a word.

Because people who don't understand, it doesn't make sense to say more.

I will make up for your mistakes, but not because I forgive you...just because I love him.

Ning Bai turned and left.

Feng Wan was anxious and she chuckled and said: "Xiao Bai, Mom really loves you, where are you going? Mom always loves you..."

But Ning Bai's footsteps were steady and powerful, and he never looked back.

Feng Wan looked at the back of Ning Bai's departure, his face full of despair and helplessness, as if he had returned to her twenty years ago, the child accidentally separated from her, and was drowned in the crowd, no matter how he called, he Never responded to myself.

He is getting farther and farther away from himself...

This journey is twenty years.

In the past two decades, I regretted every moment. I regretted that I didn’t hold the child’s hand, worried that he would die, worried that he would suffer, and worried that he wouldn’t have a good life because he would never be more loved He is...

But why is he finally reunited now, but he does not want to come back?

why?

Feng Wan cried and said, "Xiao Bai, your mother didn't intentionally lose you. My mother loves you very much. Do you believe my mother?"

Ning Bai finally looked back at her, and the lip angle was ridiculed. You still don't know. It's not that you lost me, but I left.

But he didn't say.

Because he will never come back here again.

Ning Bai got in the car, closed the door in front of Feng Wan, and started the car to leave. The diary was placed by him in the position of co-pilot.

The black (color) book lay there quietly.

Ning Bai glanced at the diary, his lips were pale, his face was cold, and the deep worry (color) appeared at the moment.

He was afraid that Lu Xiaodong could not think about it.

Things are more serious than he thought.

Ning Bai held the steering wheel tightly with his fingers, and made a phone call to Xue Ze with the other hand, and said with a deep voice: "Help me check, where is Lu Xiaodong now?"

………………

Lin Ziran ate a hot pot outside alone. When he swiped the card, he saw the balance in the card, and finally (exposed) a slightly worried expression.

He is running out of money!

During this time, I was so happy that I lived in a luxury suite in a five-star hotel and ate all kinds of luxurious and luxurious meals... I was spending extravagantly in the game, and I never thought about saving, so it caused him to run out of money. .

After all, it's money in the game, it doesn't feel like it is spent, like spending gold coins in the game...

One hundred thousand blinks and it's almost gone.

Then he remembered that in the pursuit of Ning Bai, he spent hundreds of thousands of clothes to buy clothes. At that time, his brain was really flooded and he bought so many clothes. He knew that the task could not be done. It would be better to keep money and refresh himself! Who is going to spend on that **** picky ghost!

Investment losses.

Lin Ziran can’t wait to resell the clothes to Ning Bai, but if he can’t think about such shameless things, he can shameless, but he still has to give Lu Xiaodong a face...

[Lin Ziran: System, I have no money, what should I do 5555]

[System: Go back to find your cheap parents want? 】

[Lin Ziran: I have starved to death in my life, and I will never take them a penny! 】

[System: In this life? 】

[Lin Ziran: These few days...]

Lin Ziran (Mo) (Mo) touched his chin, the money was almost exhausted, and he estimated that he could not stay in this world for long.

After all, he is playing games, to enjoy life, but not to endure hardship.

Lin Ziran drove back to the hotel, thinking about the balance on the card, this five-star hotel can't live...

Suddenly, his aura flashed, in fact, he can stay in the house!

Lu Xiaodong used to fool around all day before, so he didn't live in a dormitory, but the dormitory was still there. Lin Ziran thought of it, and immediately retired from the hotel's suite and drove to Lu Xiaodong's school.

He is a student. There is nothing wrong with the accommodation, but he feels particularly kind.

This is a good university in the city, and the environment is also very good. Although Lu Xiaodong is not as clever as Ning Bai, he is not mentally retarded. On the contrary, he works very hard. If he does not come from violence, he will make himself this It seems that he could have a good life, after all, the Lu family really did not treat him badly in money.

He was just wrong, hoping that someone who would never love him would love him.

To hurt yourself for someone who doesn't love him.

Lin Ziran came to Lu Xiaodong's dormitory according to the information provided by the system. Because he had never lived, he didn't even have the key to the dormitory, which made it very embarrassing to stand at the door.

The roommate didn't expect to meet him here and said very curiously: "Xiaodong, why are you here? Is there anything?"

Lin Ziran scratched his head: "I think the school is about to start, and I plan to live on campus this year."

The roommate was very surprised. He didn’t know Lu Xiaodong very well. He felt like a rebellious second ancestor. However, college students were still mostly enthusiastic and didn’t think much. They laughed happily: "You are also willing to live in school. Okay, isn’t there a key? I’ll give you one later, let’s go first.”

The roommate is called Xia Hang. He is warm and cheerful, and he is also the squad leader of Lu Xiaodong. He worked hard and frugally in the neighborhood during the summer vacation, so he stayed at school and did not go back. It is still some time before the official start of the school, and other roommates did not come back. It was quite surprised to see that Lu Xiaodong suddenly came to the school.

After all, Lu Xiaodong is the kind of person who will not come to the dormitory after starting school.

Lin Ziran followed Xia Hang into the dormitory, glanced around, and soon found out where his bed was.

When Xia Hang looked at it, a rare blush appeared on her face, embarrassed and said: "I'll help you clean up."

Because Lu Xiaodong did not live on campus all the year round, his bed was filled with debris by several other students, and everything was covered in quilts.

Lin Ziran didn't mind at all, normal!

He has a good impression of this class leader. He is still a naive and simple college student. Lin Ziran is very relaxed and happy. Compared with the boss like Jiang 　 and the control madness like Ning Bai, how cute are the college students of the same age!

Oh, he suddenly felt that the world is so kind!

Lu Xiaodong is really a child. He doesn’t know how to make a good life. He has to waste his life with his father and mother.

If there was such a person, Lin Ziran must have beaten his head to wake him up.

But turning around and thinking, Lin Ziran sighed again. He was also standing and talking without backache. From the perspective of Lu Xiaodong, he desperately loved his parents. How could he say let go? I am not qualified to blame Lu Xiaodong.

Everyone has their own life and something they insist on.

How can one feel the pain of the other without being in it?

No one else has the right to set a beak.

The two made the bed together. To express gratitude, Lin Ziran invited Xia Hang to eat out. Xia Hang was a very warm and familiar person. Although he was not familiar with Lu Xiaodong before, the two of them came down after a meal. I'm very familiar with it.

Xia Hang looked at Lin Ziran and was a little puzzled. He felt that Classmate Lu was actually very cheerful and (sexual) xing was very good. Why did he want to make himself that non-mainstream before? I thought at first that he would be the kind of social person...

However, classmate Lu is now in a state of change. Not only has the appearance become normal, but also not mixed with the social gangsters, Xia Hang is still very happy for him. In the future, they will be good friends in a dormitory!

Lin Ziran lived for a few days and quickly adapted to this place.

He originally lived in school in real life. Lu Xiaodong’s school dormitory is in good condition, and there are all air conditioning. Lin Ziran is not uncomfortable at all, but feels more intimate, so why did he have to live with his brain. At home...

Every day I looked at the cold face of my father and mother.

He should have moved out as soon as the plot collapsed!

I still couldn't let go before I held myself.

Lin Ziran was lying on the bed (chuang) suddenly suddenly.

His money is running low, but in fact he still has an asset brought out! money is not the problem!

Lin Ziran immediately got up from (bed chuang) and rushed out.

[System: What's wrong with you? 】

[Lin Ziran: I know how to get money! 】

He flew downstairs in the dormitory and looked at the fluorescent green Lamborghini. Lu Xiaodong did not know who was biased by someone. He could even see this kind of car!

Shiny enough to brighten the blind man's eyes.

He used to drive such a car for the sake of his eyeballs, but now that he lives on campus, the student must look like a student. What Lamborghini do you want? Lamborghini with fluorescent green?

Unlucky at first glance!

So green?

Lin Ziran immediately called the seller of second-hand cars, because his asking price was not high, the other party drove out and evaluated the car. The next day, he gave Lin Ziran 200,000.

Looking at 200,000, I felt that the money came so easily, and Lin Ziran's mood was beautiful again.

He can continue to hi.

What is Lamborghini, is he not fragrant when sharing bicycles? It’s enough for school! Health and environmental protection can also exercise (body Shen) body!

Under the tree-lined road of the school, the air was fresh and the breeze was blowing. Just after eating, Lin Ziran was riding a bicycle on the road and returning to his dormitory downstairs, unexpectedly and Ning Bai's eyes.

Lin Ziran: "..."

Does this guy want to scare him, (gan) come to his school?

The evil spirits are gone!

Lin Ziran locked his bicycle with a blank expression, and walked up as if he could not see Ning Bai.

Ning Bai has been waiting here for a long time.

His eyes fell on the boy's face.

The boy (dry gan) has a clean face, small sweat beads on his forehead, and a simple white t-shirt on his body, just like a very ordinary student. By the way, even the shiny earrings are gone .

It looks good, but Ning Bai knows that this is just an appearance.

He looked at the yellow bicycle.

There is pain (color) in the fundus.

Has the child fallen to this point, accommodation, cycling, his original car... was it sold?

He has nothing, except for a little money, he has never received any care for him, any love he expected, but now even the remaining money is gone?

Ning Bai remembered what he had done.

He didn't know the child at all, he knew nothing, acted as a hangman's horn (color), deprived the boy of the few things, and let him spend money to buy clothes... to call him to do things for himself, Just because he chases himself and says he likes it, he should trample on this intention as he should.

He never thought that this child might just want someone to love him.

So disguised as rebellious, want to get attention and presence.

If he was more attentive at the time, he noticed earlier that he had a rebellious appearance and a fragile heart that was eager to be loved, he would be more gentle, rather than letting his indifference, on the heart that was already ragged , Leaving more wounds.

He should understand earlier...

Ning Bai's heart seemed to be tightened, his (chest xiong) cavity slightly fluctuated, and followed Lin Ziran up.

As soon as Lin Ziran went upstairs, he found that Ning Bai had followed him, and suddenly felt a toothache.

He didn’t understand why Ning Bai came here. When he left the Lu family, he was more worried about Jiang, not really worried about Ning Bai...because Ning Baitian (sexuality) was cold, not the kind of stalking. If you don’t provoke him, he won’t provoke you.

The last time I rejected it was obvious, so Lin Ziran didn't even think that Ning Bai would come to him.

This is the school dormitory. Lin Ziran looked at the classmates coming and going next to him. He still had to count on his face.

Ning Bai looked at the boy's cold and alienated face, the pain (color) appeared deep in his eyes, and even the blood flowing through the heart was cold. He has not appeared these days, constantly restraining himself and not letting himself out Now in front of the boy, because he knew that the matter had come to this point, any of his actions would not be forgiven and understood.

But he could not continue to stay.

Thinking of the contents of the diary, unprecedented fears drowned his heart. He was afraid that if he didn't look at the other party in a blink, the other party would completely disappear from his world.

If, due to his negligence, something unexpected happened to this child, he would never be able to forgive himself.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, his eyes complex, and his voice low: "I worry about you."

Jiang 　 also said before that, Lin Ziran was almost numb, and he thought it was a dog blood script. No one cared about Lu Xiaodong before. Now I don’t lick you anymore. You run and worry about me...

Sure enough, I only understand how to cherish the truth that is unstoppable!

Lin Zi was in a trance.

[Lin Ziran: I think now, I am afraid that it is not the script that the protagonist attacked. I am the script that the protagonist suffered! 】

[System: Don’t say, it’s a bit like...]

[Lin Ziran: Terrible. 】

Lin Ziran quickly recovered from the association, and his own perception of Ning Bai was actually the same. Although this guy was picky about troubles and forced him to call him, it was all restricted by others before him. It was all a bit unfair to Ning Bai when he sent it to him to find it, and he also saved himself from Jiang.

To make an analogy, it’s like he hates military training, going to school, taking exams, getting up early every morning, losing the game, and occasionally swearing, and the boss who is working part-time will also secretly scold...but This kind of annoyance is actually like that. His annoyance to Ning Bai is probably at this level. If there is any hatred, it will be funny, not to mention that the other party is still a game npc...It’s okay to finish it after spraying. Are you happy to find yourself?

But after all, he let himself be a errand for half a month, and Lin Ziran didn't like him either.

So strictly speaking, he now feels that Ning Bai doesn't like or hate the passerby... as long as you don't trouble me, I'll assume you don't exist.

But from Lu Xiaodong's perspective, he would not want to see Ning Bai.

Lin Zi then thought about it for a long time, and re-read the script again. He felt that Lu Xiaodong didn't really like Ning Bai. The child's pursuit of Ning Bai was probably a whim! The original plot said that Lu Xiaodong was struggling with Ning Bai because he fell in love at first sight, and later tried to administer qj. He didn’t understand Ning Bai at all, and because he was jealous of this kind of thing, it didn’t look like true love ...

Lu Xiaodong does not understand what love is, he has never been loved, because the circle of mixed friends is not good, naturally got some bad habits (sexuality)... His life is actually twisted and sad.

If you meet a good-looking person, you will pursue it. If you can’t catch up, you will hate because of love. If you want to retaliate, he will do that kind of thing. Maybe he just wants to destroy himself.

The consequences were as he wished.

Lu Xiaodong's liking is not a true liking, but an attempt of his rebellion. After all, it's just a kid's prank, and finally he can't stop himself.

Now that Ning Bai's life is revealed, he is even less likely to like Ning Bai.

Instead, he will hate Ning Bai is not necessarily.

Because this is the one he can't compare with anyway. He is the favorite child in the hearts of his parents, and what is he? Nothing.

Ning Bai looked at the boy's changing face (color).

Sad for a while, disappointed for a while, sighed for a while, and finally sad (color).

All this made him very uncomfortable.

Sure enough, although it doesn't seem that you are acting, how can it not matter? Sorry, my existence makes you so painful...

Ning Bai's voice was dumb and painful. He looked at Lin Ziran seriously and said, "I want to tell you..."

You are fine, you don’t need to live for anyone, you don’t need to be sad for not meeting their expectations...

You did not miss anything, the fault is them.

But these words reached the throat, but suddenly he couldn't speak, because he shouldn't know these. The boy used this appearance to disguise himself, but he didn't want to expose the vulnerability to others.

Do not want others to look at him with pity.

He wanted to protect his dignity.

Ning Bai's throat rolled, and finally he slowly said, "I won't return home."

Lin Ziran: "...?"

So you came to school specifically to tell me this? Do you return home and I have a dime? I won't return home either. Whoever loves to go to that kind of home is better!

Lin Ziran looked cold, and said, "Oh, whatever you want."

Ning Bai looked at him sadly: "Don't you care?"

Lin Ziran: "I don't care."

Ning Bai looked at his cold eyes, but his heart tightened again. Do you really care? If you really don't care why you ran away from home, why would you not go back if you have no money, why would you rather sell it The car must also live on campus...

Why should I escape there?

Lin Zi was impatient, and he wouldn't be able to stick here. The classmates came back later and it was not easy to explain. Lin Ziran pushed Ning Bai and said coldly: "If you are fine, leave."

Ning Bai looked at the alert in the boy's eyes and visibly dissatisfied with his face, his heart was bitter.

Once upon a time, he liked himself so much, he always looked forward to himself, and would be waiting for him downstairs every night. At that time, he didn't cherish it, but he was a little rogue trick and he was squandering his enthusiasm. , Now he finally stopped chasing himself...

Ning Bai closed his eyes and said in a mute voice: "Okay."

………………

Lin Ziran thought he had sent Ning Bai, but a few days later he found himself very wrong!

For example, if he went to the bedroom, he would find Ning Bai's car parked downstairs.

At night (sleeping Shui), I looked down, and Ning Bai's car was still there.

Even if Ning Bai was absent from taking a nap occasionally, Ning Bai's car came back after a meal.

Help! ! !

Although Ning Bai never appeared and did not disturb him, he was almost everywhere, thinking that Lin Zi was creepy here, this terrible feeling that no matter where he went...

In other words, why did Ning Bai do this?

Isn't he busy? When I pursued myself before, it was common for picky ghosts to work overtime to 12 o'clock, saying that it is not a matter of reason, why now it is okay to follow yourself at school all day?

Wouldn't he really like himself? Lin Ziran shivered.

But even if he really likes himself, it doesn’t have to be this way?

Dignified barrister, doing the followers.

Where did I offend you?

That morning Lin Ziran (sleeping Shui) got a lazy morning, looked down from the balcony, and saw the familiar black (color) car. He suddenly felt a toothache, and he couldn't bear it anymore! This guy really hates it!

Lin Ziran ran downstairs and patted the car window vigorously!

The window shook down, and (male) showed a man's handsome and delicate face, but compared with the calmness and indifference of the past, it seemed like a little more tired. It seemed that this time did not take a good rest.

Ning Bai's eyes were soft and her voice was low, "What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran was upset, so you are so kind to ask me something? Don't you know what you are doing? His voice was cold and his face (color) displeased: "Why are you following me! Are you sick?"

Ning Bai pursed her lips and looked bitter.

He didn’t dare to tell the boy, I’m afraid you can’t do silly things, these days he can hardly close his eyes, as long as he closes his eyes, it’s like returning to the dark past, this time there is a little boy and He is together. The words in the boy’s diary seem to be a few words, but he (gougou) outlined the hopelessness of a boy, so clear and vivid, he worked so hard to get his parents’ affirmation and want his parents’ love... But now he doesn't even have this last trust.

Ning Bai did not dare to close his eyes and dare to leave. He was afraid that if he left, he would encounter something that he regretted.

Ning Bai (thin bao) lips slightly pursed, said softly: "I did not follow you, just here."

Lin Zi laughed angrily: "You treat me as a fool?"

Ning Bai looked down: "Of course not."

The man’s appearance made Lin Ziran feel a punch on the cotton, and they didn’t bother you or embarrass you, just parked the car downstairs in your bedroom, and it happened to be where you appeared. You scolded him and asked him He pretended not to speak silly.

It's just that oil and salt can't enter

Lin Ziran kicked Ning Bai's expensive car door fiercely, threatening fiercely: "You listen to me, don't let me follow you anymore? I don't want to see you!"

Ning Bai's sad expression passed by, and he whispered, "You can treat me as if you can't see me."

Does this refuse to leave?

Lin Ziran took a deep breath and sarcastically raised his corner of the mouth. "It was you who initially rejected me. It is also you who is chasing me who refuses to go now. Are you being stupid with your brain, who will you look like in this way? Let I guess, do you want to say you like me again?"

Ning Bai said, "No."

Lin Ziran stunned, did he finally stop pretending?

Then he saw the man looking at him seriously, and the amber (color) eyes seemed to be indescribably deep pain and tenderness. He said, "I love you."