After a few days of Lin Ziran leisurely, Jiang　 finally stopped calling him, and did not know whether he gave up or was planning something else.

Ning Bai had a message every day, but Lin Ziran never responded.

What if he has such a good temper?

Lin Ziran came back for dinner that day. As soon as he stopped the car, he saw Jiang 　 waiting outside.

The man leaned against a black (color) off-road vehicle. It seemed that he had waited for a long time. When he saw him come back, he looked up (exposed) with a cold face and deep eyes.

Lin Ziran froze for a moment, and then quickly reacted. Jiang 　 is very powerful in this city, and he is not low-key, he will find it normal.

However, I had some troubles with Jiang　 last time, and had already let myself go, so I was too lazy to ignore Jiang　.

Lin Ziran didn't look at him, and walked directly past Jiang　.

Jiang 　 Shen (Serious) was helpless. He strode over and grabbed Lin Ziran's wrist. The Black Eyed God (Serious) said sincerely and worriedly: "I heard about your family, are you okay?"

Lin Ziran turned around and looked at him thoughtfully.

He suspected that Jiang 　 stabbed this thing, but there was no evidence. Looking at Jiang 　's worried expression at the moment, if this thing was really done by him, then it was really a man in the city.

Jiang's plan should be like this: Debunking Ning Bai's life → Lu Xiaodong was shocked and sad → Lu Maofeng Feng Wan recognized his relatives → Lu Xiaodong was left out → Ning Bai returned to Lu's home → Lu Xiaodong was sad and desperate → Lu Xiaodong started Resentment Ning Bai → Lu Xiaodong runs away from home → Lu Maofeng Feng Wan is indifferent → Lu Xiaodong drops the dust → Jiang Shining debut → takes care of the little pity that no one loves and no one hurts → Lu Xiaodong finds that only Jiang Hao in the world → Lu Xiao Dongtou gave him a hug → Jiang Chenggong was raised in a small pity.

Plan to pass!

It's almost nothing to think of it. Lu Xiaodong has followed Jiang 　 for so long, he can't know nothing about Lu Xiaodong's situation, so Ning Bai's life experience is his (killing sha) hand 　! If it is Lu Xiaodong who is really in such a desperate and painful situation, may he really catch Jiang 　 as he does the life-saving straw?

Because when a person loses everything, even if there is only a little kindness and compassion, he is difficult to resist.

At this time, Jiang’s previous mistakes don’t matter anymore, it doesn’t matter anymore, because Lu Xiaodong has renounced himself, he needs someone who can love him to protect him, even if Jiang doesn’t really love him much, but Jiang will definitely behave Love him very much! In this world with no place to stay, Lu Xiaodong can only find the last warmth here in Jiang　... and then completely reduced to plaything controlled by Jiang　.

Jiang 　 could even persuade him, and in order to resolve his inner resentment and pain, backhanded the Lu Maofeng family who had no use value...

Jiang 　 has countless ways to make Lu Xiaodong inseparable from him and his palm.

Lin Ziran almost shivered. He felt that this person was a little scary. At this moment, he finally realized that he was the tyrannical boss in the script, far from the surface looks so simple... Fortunately, he is not Lu Xiaodong at all, naturally not Be deceived!

Even if he said 10,000 steps back, this matter was not pierced by Jiang Yu, and he was not interested in getting involved with Jiang Yu.

Lin Ziran picked a corner of her lips and said lightly: "I don't care about my business."

Jiang 　 seemed a little sad, he said dumbly: "I know you are blaming me for what happened before, that time I did something wrong... But I am really worried about you."

Lin Ziran said, "Oh."

Jiang Yu said: "Do you believe that I like you?"

Lin Ziran smiled: "Like me? Do you think I will believe it?"

Jiang 　 is to him, nothing more than to be accountable-only to have something to do, only to do such a thing, and maybe there is such a little like... But how about that? I don't like him.

Jiang 　 looked at Lin Ziran's indifferent line of sight. There was no longer any admiration and admiration, nor would he smile at him anymore.

Obviously still this person, but it seems to be far away.

Like it?

At first, he thought it was not like it, just accounted for it. It was because she suddenly felt a little interested and wanted to play, but he was not willing to give him away to others. People like Lu Xiaodong were just played by him It’s time to greet with a smile, he doesn’t like someone disobeying him.

But then he found out that he was wrong. The child had a very stubborn (strong qiang) side. It seemed flattering and lowly, but in fact, he was very hard.

He said he didn't like you, so he didn't like you.

No longer please you.

No longer chasing you.

There is never a shortage of people around Jiang. No matter men or women, they are more beautiful than Lu Xiaodong. He even thought about letting go, because he is a joke with Lu Xiaodong and makes himself a joke, but Why can't I put it down in the end?

In order to get this person, he did not hesitate to shoot Ning Bai and expose Ning Bai's life.

The organs counted.

He didn’t know why he was attached to such a child, and he didn’t know what kind of feeling it was... But as soon as he thought about it, he would leave completely, and never appear beside him again. Tolerate such a result.

Since he didn't want to let go, he would get him by any means.

This is Jiang's code of conduct.

Jiang 　 looked down at Lin Ziran, his eyes deep and helpless. He sighed slowly: "What about then, would you believe that I like you?"

Lin Ziran also looked at him. In order to lie to himself, Jiang 　 was so rare to be able to whisper so low, but he made a mistake.

I never care whether he likes it or not.

Since I don't care, there is naturally no belief or not, because even if he really likes it, does he have a relationship with himself?

Lin Ziran laughed, and he looked at Jiang　: "You have made a mistake."

Jiang Yu said: "What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran raised his eyebrows: "I don't believe you like me, it's not important, the important thing is that I don't like you, and I don't want you to disturb me again."

After talking, Lin Ziran turned and left.

Jiang　 said behind him: "Do you hate Lu Maofeng?"

Lin Zi stopped suddenly and looked back at him.

In Jiang Hei's eyes, there is a deep dark (color), if nothing happens, the voice is low and hoarse with a hint of temptation-confuse: "If you hate him, I can let him kneel down and beg you. Everything you want ...I can give you all."

Lin Ziran was definitely looking at him, he said, really let Lao Tzu guess.

This proposal is indeed heart-pounding, but although he is not used to Lu Daofeng's scum daddy, it is not cost-effective to (sell mai) for this matter.

Moreover, it is just a game...

Lin Ziran said, "All of your things are not what I want."

Only the former Lu Xiaodong was rare.

Jiang looked at the boy's indifferent eyes, listened to his calm words, his expression slightly frozen, he thought it was now the boy's most vulnerable time, he thought he needed his own help, he thought he would hurt and hate, he would He took the opportunity to get under his wings, but the result was not like this...

The boy is stronger than he thought (strong qiang), or he has learned how to hide his pain.

Even if the dust falls, he will no longer beg his tail to pity.

Will not cry and fall...

Will not be stunned by hatred and jealousy...

The blow made him renewed, and he began to understand how to let go, shining an unprecedented dazzling light...

Jiang 　's heart slowly fell down, he felt that his plan might have deviated, and did not move towards his expected development.

This method may allow the boy to leave Ning Bai, but it cannot make him approach him.

Because once he no longer cares about Lu Maofeng, no love and no hate, he has no reason to continue to rely on himself.

Seeing the boy go further and further, Jiang　 stepped forward and grabbed the boy's wrist again.

Lin Ziran flicked a bit, failed to shake off Jiang's hand, and said coldly: "Mr. Jiang is also a person with a head and a face, don't you want to make trouble here?"

Jiang 　 looked at the boy's face, and his black eyes were angry, burning like flames, and looked at him in a humble... Jiang 　's heart suddenly jumped hard.

He seemed to understand something.

Maybe this is the real side of the boy.

Once flattering, flattery, deliberate depravity...all in his disguise, it is the protection (color) he put on himself, he wants to get Lu Maofeng's affirmation, wants to get his own attention, he is so Struggling to get a sense of existence, but no one cares about him...

Until one day, when he finally realized that no matter what he did, he couldn't get what he wanted, he gave up and turned into what he hated, and no longer pleased anyone.

But this way, he is more charming than ever before.

It's just that all this has been covered up by that depraved appearance, so that no one has discovered his goodness and perseverance (Qiangqiang).

Lin Ziran felt that Jiang　's eyes were a little disturbing and frowned, "Please let go."

Jiang's eyes fell on the boy's face, the boy's eyes caught fire, and the soft lips opened and closed, but it was like inviting himself... He suddenly stepped forward and directly forced Lin Ziran-now On the door, he pinched his chin and bowed his head (kiss wen).

Lin Ziran was coming out of (kiss wen) tears, he was about to be blown up by this **** (qiang qi) (kiss wen)!

[Lin Ziran: If I can’t beat him, today I’ll let him kneel down and call him Daddy! 】

【system︰……】

[Lin Ziran: This **** will only bully and be hard, do you dare to treat Ning Bai like this:)]

【system︰……】

Lin Ziran couldn't help but think of the original plot. Although Jiang and Ningbai were separated and in love, the love was also very bloody, but there was no such thing as a strong qiang system. From the beginning to the end, Ningbai was very respected. All of his fierceness is reflected in dealing with cannon fodder and enemies. This is not the case when pursuing Ning Bai. On the contrary, it is very courteous and polite.

How can you do this? Do you know if you fall? !

Wait... Lin Ziran's expression suddenly froze, Jiang 　 actually didn't fall apart, he has been implementing it thoroughly!

Respect Ning Bai and do not despise opponents like Ning Bai, but in the face of Lu Xiaodong's cannon fodder, the means are fierce, and he is extremely versatile. Isn't he doing this now? From the previous KTV incident and this life experience, he has always been like this!

Although the person pursuing changed from Ning Bai to himself, the attitude towards Ning Bai and himself is essentially the same as the original plot.

No comparison, no harm, so angry even more like this.

Really watch people serving food, think he is better to bully? !

After all, Jiang Yu never understood Lu Xiaodong as an equal. In his eyes, Lu Xiaodong was a bully and a fool.

Lin Ziran took advantage of the ventilation gap and slammed Jiang 　, punching him in the face!

Jiang 　 was beaten to the side, it seemed very unexpected that Lin Ziran would start, and his dark eyes looked at him.

Lin Ziran finished playing well, but when he looked at Jiang's appearance, he was a little wary. He was afraid that this guy would suddenly break up. If he couldn't hold back for a while and wanted to play prison-forbidden, wouldn't he have to find a way to quit now... …Although he was a little flustered, he still showed an angry look, pretending not to be afraid at all!

Jiang 　 looked deeply at Lin Ziran, and when Lin Ziran was very upset, he suddenly smirked: "It's fine."

Lin Ziran: "?"

Jiang 　 looked at the boy who was clearly afraid, but pretended to be strong (qiang qiang) in disobedience. His eyes were soft and spoiled: "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you."

Lin Ziran: "..."

There were not many people in the parking lot, and Lin Ziran did not dare to stay here again. He looked at Jiang　 coldly and spit out a word: "Get off."

Then speed up and leave.

Jiang　 didn't stop this time, he just looked at the boy's back and forth, his eyes dimmed.

Maybe this time, it was my calculation error...

But I will not let go easily.

………………

Ning Bai didn't get off work at 11pm, but instead of going home, he drove down to a hotel and looked up at the scattered lights above.

He had already explored where Lin Ziran lived, and he came here every night to take a look.

But it didn't go up once.

Because he doesn't know how to face this person.

To beg for his forgiveness, to say love him, to say that I have no intention of taking away anything from you? Or (dry gan) deceive him simply that your parents actually love you?

All this is too pale.

Because only through personal experience can you understand the pain that goes deep into the bone marrow...

Language cannot smooth the scars.

For the boy, his own existence is the greatest harm to him. He makes his existence meaningless, making him look like a joke... Although he escaped from that home, his heart escaped from there. ?

Even if he paid such a big price, not to mention this child who is not smart?

Is he sad now?

But what he needed was never his own comfort.

Ning Bai's lips (exposed) gave a self-deprecating smile, pressing down the astringent meaning in his eyes.

………………

Xue Ze didn't dare to come to Ning Bai recently and shook it. When he met Ning Bai, he walked around. It was a mess. He was afraid of such troubles, but today he had to come.

Xue Ze pushed the door open and said carefully: "That, your mother is here again, oh, the biological mother..."

Ning Bai's eyes didn't lift: "No."

Xue Ze is going crazy, is he easy? Every day he wants to help Ning Bai drive his mother away! He felt that his hands were covered with sinful blood-fishy! He is about to persevere!

Xue Ze was about to cry: "Why don't you go and tell her clearly? Auntie is waiting every day. Now many people are asking me what's going on. I'm about to hide it. You don't want people to mention you later. Ruthless and ruthless, a ruthless **** who doesn't even dismiss her mother? Of course I know you don't care about fame or something, but if you change someone to send her next time..."

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Ning Bai's hand holding the pen.

For a long time, he stood up and said: "Okay, I'll see her."

Feng Wan recently came to Ningbai’s company every day. She didn’t dare to break in. She was afraid that Ning Bai would be more angry. She thought about her patience. One day, she might move Ning Bai and make him willing. Come out to see yourself...

There were people around, and occasionally someone looked at her curiously, but she didn't care.

She just wanted to see Ning Bai.

Suddenly, a person appeared in front of her.

Feng Wan raised his head and saw Ning Bai's face, (exposed) a look of surprise (color): "Xiao Bai, you are finally willing to see me."

Ning Bai looked deeply at the woman, her lips and lips were indifferent. You are still the same as before. You are always doing what you want. If you never know how to let go, you should let go decisively, otherwise it is just for each other. It hurts.

Being persistent over and over again is not worth the people you give and continue to love.

But turn a blind eye to the people you should care about.

His eyes are ridiculous (color), but the tone is faint: "It's not convenient to talk here, it's better to go to your house to talk."

Feng Wan Huo Ran stood up, excitedly incoherent: "Are you willing to go home with your mother?"

Ning Bai did not deny that he just turned away.

Feng Wan was talking to him all the way, but Ning Bai never responded with a word. He just thought absently, what the boy's life would look like, and he suddenly wanted to see it with his own eyes...

Over the past two decades, the Lu family moved to this city several times, and naturally it was not Ning Bai's impression.

Ning Bai did not want to return to the woman's home, but here is Lu Xiaodong's home.

Suddenly he wanted to take a look.

Feng Wan knew nothing and led him upstairs with enthusiasm, while walking: "I have packed up a room for you, you see if there is anything to add, my dad and I will buy it for you , In the future our family will be in harmony..."

Ning Baidao: "Which room is Lu Xiaodong?"

Feng Wan was reluctant to start Lu Xiaodong on the premise of Ning Bai. She probably felt that she had another son, just like a betrayal of Ning Bai. She said in silence: "At that time your father felt sorry for me and had to hold a child. Come back and keep... this room is his..."

Ning Bai walked into the room.

This room is simple (dry gan) and clean, although there is a little of a child (sexual), but it does not appear dirty and messy, something unexpected.

He turned to Feng Wan and said, "I want to stay alone for a while."

Feng Wan didn't want to leave, but she ignored Ning Bai's indifferent eyes and suddenly her throat stagnated, so she nodded and left.

Ning Bai's fingers flicked across the desk, the books on the table were neatly arranged, but because there was no one to live on, a shallow layer of gray fell on the desktop, and the family photo was placed on the table. The boy in the photo laughed The splendor of the man, the men and women behind him are gentle, and they look like a beautiful family, but this may just be a deliberate illusion. A photo does not represent anything...

The bed sheet is a simple gray (color) grid, and the walls are white (color), without too much embellishment. This room is very different from Lu Xiaodong's first impression on him.

At that time, Lu Xiaodong, who appeared in front of him, was dyed with gray hair and smoky makeup with earrings. He looked frivolous and wanton, like a street gangster, but this room is just a normal one. But the room for college students.

Looking here, I can see what the boy really looks like at home...

It seems that all the previous violations have been explained.

Rebellion is the protection (color) he used to disguise, but only in his own small space is he.

So when he no longer does that dressing, he will give people (dry gan) a clean feeling, even if it is a little cunning and bad, he will challenge him against him, but it is also annoying because he is not really That way... deliberately trying to be hated can only lie to him.

Ning Bai glanced across the bedside table, and suddenly saw a gap in the drawer, probably because of the rush to leave.

He walked subconsciously, opened it, and found a black (color) cover book.

Ning Bai took out the book.

Then with a bitter smile, did this child still have the habit of writing a diary? It's even more sensitive than he thought...

This is a very ** thing, Ning Bai originally did not intend to watch, but he hesitated for a moment while holding the book, wanting to understand the boy's thoughts in his heart, he finally prevailed.

Ning Bai's eyes appeared a struggling (color), or opened the book.

"My mother taught me piano, but I don't really like it, but I will study hard if I can make my mother happy."

"I learned a new song today, I want to play it for my mother, but after listening to it, she was very upset and said that I didn’t play well and it was useless... But the teacher clearly praised me for playing well, why didn’t my mother play? I like it..."

"Today's exams are not performing well, worse than the last time. I know I will disappoint my parents again."

"It's probably that I'm not smart enough, enough (gan), so I can't do anything well and can't achieve their wishes..."

"Do they really love me?"

"Sometimes, I think it’s good for them to scold me, but they always look at me with disappointment. Sometimes I don’t know if I am disappointing them, or if they have never hoped for me."

"I dyed my hair (color) and pierced my ears. They finally got angry and reprimanded me. It turns out that if I make a mistake, they will be angry too. At least I didn't ignore me today."

The expression (color) in Ning Bai's eyes became more and more painful, he almost couldn't see it anymore, but he still turned down.

"I don't want to work hard anymore, because hard work has never been useful, because I was born useless."

"Everyone is born with their own meaning of existence, but what is my meaning?"

"I started to spend money and go out to fool, I finally have a lot of friends, they will flatter me, we are acting together, I actually don’t like this, but I seem to find a sense of existence, when I am with them, I think I am very important."

"But they are kind to me, is it because I have money?"

"I know no one loves me, no one likes me, who would like someone like me, uselessly stupid and annoying."

"But I don't care because I already knew."

"It doesn't matter if you hate it...I really, don't care at all."

"Useless people like me would never be liked by anyone."

"I don't need anyone to love me."

Ning Bai finally couldn't stand it anymore, holding the book's fingers hard to white, shaking slightly.

He closed his eyes in pain.

The nightmare that he had deliberately forgotten swept over again, he vowed never to be dominated by those nightmares again, he had become big enough, he let go of the woman’s hand and walked into the crowd, He thought all this had passed.

But it is not.

Even if there was some speculation, but when I saw this diary with my own eyes, I realized that reality is always more cruel.

Only then did you know how you came over these twenty years.

Sorry……

I only know now that all your sufferings are related to me.

In a trance, he seemed to be back in that silent and dark world.

This time, he was not alone.

There was a little child who stood there ignorantly, ignorantly, and blankly. He didn’t know why he existed or why he appeared there. He just looked at the men and women in front of him.

He tried hard to be loved by the so-called parents, exhausted his little strength, and wanted to do better, but no matter how hard he tried, he could not be recognized, because in the eyes of men and women, he always Not as good as yourself.

Forever, what is lost is the best.

And he is just an unpopular substitute.

But the boy didn't know.

He thought it was just that he was not good enough, that he was just not good enough, he began to hate himself, and finally became what he hated.

He is used to the disappointed eyes of men and women and the indifference of men and women.

He did everything he could to get attention from...

But it always fails in the end.

Every time you fall after climbing up, you will only fall worse and worse.

Later he finally gave up.

He thought it was his fault, he was useless, he didn't care to be hated...

No need to be loved.

Because he is not worthy of being loved.

He gradually accepted this fact.

In fact, this is not the case. Ning Bai opened his eyes slowly, a hint of bitterness appeared in his eyes, and his fingers brushed the diary.

not like this.

You are very good, you are a very good child... these are not your fault.

The wrong thing is someone who doesn't know how to love you.

they.

And I.