Diary (5)

"Yes, that person is me..." I smiled and slowly spread my sad life in the sun, "...every day, I am immersed in my own world without any communication with the outside world. .(((Mobile reading visit m.lightnovelpub.net))) In fact, looking at the girls laughing in the sun, my heart is full of envy and longing. However, I dare not, I am afraid, because a certain one from my childhood Misunderstanding, I have always lived in low self-esteem and frustration."

"At that time, I definitely did not dare to stand in front of so many people like this, let alone say a word. I only dared to hide behind my thick bangs and these big black-rimmed glasses, secretly admiring those People who can stand in the sun. So, I have this nickname that has been with me for nearly 7 years-'Behind the spirit'. Originally, I entered Chunling High School with a desire to change. I hope to be in There is a new life here, but the inferiority that has been carved into the bones made me still follow the old path..."

Thinking of those sad days, I sighed softly and continued: "Just when I was ready to put away my desire to change again and accept this sad fate honestly, someone walked into me. life."

I unabashedly looked at the person under the stage. I knew that my eyes were full of hot light at this time: "I can stand here and spread my darkest memories under the sun because of That person, he helped me out of the shadows I once had."

Falling into that good memory, the smile on the corner of my mouth deepened: "He is a very awkward person. In fact, he has never been nice to me. Almost every word he said to me was scolded. You can't imagine that there are so many mean words in his head. His poisonous tongue makes me sad every time, but every time under his poisonous tongue, I feel warm and considerate."

"In the beginning, I didn't understand at all, and often cursed him quietly in my heart. But gradually, I realized that he was actually an awkward and proud person, and he was caring for me in his own way. I am a Wounded girl. In fact, there is a deep scar in his heart. My gloom and his coldness are actually our disguise to protect our wounds. But he is a strong person, not as timid as I am. It was he who helped me to abandon this black suit, it was he who reawakened the courage and confidence that had disappeared for a long time, and it was also him who has been silently supporting me behind my back. Today, I am standing here wearing such a dress, all of which are because of him."

"Here, I want to say a word to him, a sentence I want to say for a long time." I looked at Minghui's bright eyes in the audience, opened my most beautiful smile, and said to him in a voice full of love. "Minghui! I like you!"

"Wow!"

As soon as my voice fell, there was a scream from the audience, and everyone was discussing vigorously. Many people stood up and clapped enthusiastically, and some boys even whistled excitedly.

"Wow! Our No. 27 girl is so brave! This should be all the unseen confession before our campus beautiful girl trials? Let's bless her and hope that her confession can be answered smoothly!" The host was excited Following the students in the audience applauded.

"Thank you!" Bowing deeply to everyone, I nodded and greeted the host, and in his kind whistle, I walked off the stage. When I walked backstage, I saw Fan Yuze, and he was waiting for me.

The moment I saw Fan Yuze, I immediately bowed deeply to him, and said apologetically: "I'm sorry..."

"Fool, you don't have to apologize, there is no right or wrong in this kind of thing."

Fan Yuze stretched out his hand and pulled me up. There was still a gentle smile on his face, but I saw the faint sadness in his eyes. My choice still hurt him... hurt this gentle boy...

"Nana, don't show the expression of crying... as long as you can be happy. This time, you must not miss your happiness."

After speaking, Fan Yuze rubbed my head vigorously as usual, turned and left the backstage.

Are you happy? That's what I've been looking for, isn't it? But why does it inevitably hurt other people when one wants to be happy?

"What are you crying? It's so ugly."

I turned my head and looked at the place where the sound was made. Minghui was still wearing the clothes of a waiter, standing not far behind me.

He strode over, took out a tissue and wiped my face vigorously, and said, "You have found your own happiness. You should laugh, shouldn't you? Fan Yuze didn't blame you, why are you? Blame yourself? What you have to do now is to work hard to be happy, and be happy with our share!"

Just then, the phone in my pocket rang. I took out my phone and saw the name flashing on the phone screen, which was the name that had hovered in my heart thousands of times.

"Nana, what are you still hesitating about!"

After being yelled at by Minghui, I immediately connected the phone. Before I could speak, the familiar curse came over there: "Idiot! You..."

Listening to his somewhat stiff voice, my heavy heart became a little lighter.

"...The old place! Wait for me!"

After Minghui finished speaking, he immediately hung up the phone.

Reluctantly watching the phone enter the standby mode, I looked up at Minghui, he made a cheering gesture to me, and then forcefully pushed me out of the background.

Yes, what Fan Yuze and Minghui said is right, I can't let my own happiness be lost again. This time, I want to personally grasp the happiness that belongs to me!

With brisk steps, I once again came to this very familiar place. But today, in my eyes, everything around is completely different from usual.

The grass under my feet was blowing in the breeze like a naughty child, gently tracing my sandals on the back of my instep. The little birds on the campus who were frightened by the noisy crowd and hid in the woods were unwilling to be silent, and waved their powerful little wings in the green ocean. They are chirping like a group of children after school, playing happily.

Sunshine is like the most kind mother, hugging me with her warmest embrace, making me feel an unspeakable touch from the bottom of my heart. I ran under the big tree where I evaded the school worker last time, stroked its uneven trunk, looked at the tall branches, and recalled my unusually round figure at the time, and couldn't help but laugh.

Was I possessed by Superman at the time, or how could I hang up that branch and avoid the inspection of the school worker? However, it is really not easy for this big tree, which is actually not a big tree, to bear my heavy weight.

"Thanks for your hard work!" I gently thanked the tree trunk.

I sat down under the tree trunk with my knees in my arms, looked at the intersection that entered here, and quietly waited for Minghui's arrival.

The breeze blew across the treetops, and there was a rustling sound, my shadow slowly became shorter, and time passed by. Minghui did not appear.

But I am not as anxious and fearful as I was last time. Because I know that he will definitely appear in front of me today, he will definitely!

I don't need to worry, I don't need to be afraid, I just need to wait quietly, waiting for his arrival.

Hugging my knees with my hands, looking at the intersection with a smile on my face, feeling the breath of this beautiful nature, I waited quietly.

Minghui appeared when the sun reached the top of my head and the shadows were shortened to only a small part under my feet. Holding a bag in his hand, he ran over sweating profusely.

I remembered the last time he ran here to look for me at night, his flustered look, I couldn't help lowering my head and laughing secretly.

Minghui hurriedly came in front of me, and then sat beside me openly. Suddenly, he wrapped me tightly with the refreshing smell of his body.

Looking at his face close at hand, my heart that had been calm just now suddenly "pounded" wildly.

"Here you!" Minghui, who was sitting on the side, suddenly stuffed the bag in my arms into my arms.

I opened the bag curiously and found that it was a mess of pink jelly. I turned my head secretly, seeing the nervous expression on Minghui's face, couldn't help but laugh.

"Hurry up! You must eat it!" Minghui's voice was a little weird.

Following his words, I stuffed the strange-looking jelly into my mouth. A sweet strawberry scent swept through my mouth.

"I... I just... uh..." while eating the jelly, I said to him, "just now what I...what I said...is...all...uh...cough cough cough cough... …"Perhaps I was too anxious, I was choked by jelly before I finished talking!

"You stupid!" Hearing my cough, Minghui turned his head to see my flushed face, slapped me on the back in a panic, and kept scolding me: "Your brain Is it ice cream? It melts as soon as it is exposed to the sun! What do you say while eating!" Although he is still so venomous, the gentle strength and anxious tone of his hands reveal his care.

"Cough...cough..." Finally, after a painful cough, I eased my breath. Putting the last bite of jelly into my mouth, looking at his eyes, I chewed the jelly in my mouth happily.

"Idiot! Eat when choked!" Minghui turned his head awkwardly.

"Minghui!" I swallowed the jelly in my mouth, I looked at his eyes and said to him very seriously, "What I said on the stage just now is true!"

Minghui didn't speak, a blush appeared on his face. I didn't speak either, waiting quietly for his response.