"Look in the mirror, look at yourself now, if you didn't look like you were going to die now, Hua Rong wouldn't have made such a bad move, you should try to forget him, really ." Xu Sheng said bitterly.

Cheng Yu listened, speechless.

For so many years, he was used to listening to this kind of words, whether Xu Sheng, Hua Rong, or even Yu Heng were not optimistic about his feelings, and persuaded him to give up.

Of course he knew that giving up was the best choice for him, but he couldn't.

As long as he sees Lin Anlan, his thoughts are all on him. If reason can control things like love, is it still love?

"I don't want to have a second time, whether it's Xie Hui or others, next time, I won't let you in." He said to Hua Rong.

Hua Rong let out a breath of smoke, "You think beautifully, one Xie Hui cost me 3 million, and another one, am I doing charity?"

"3000000?"

"The **** about him and his agency, I originally planned to buy him and let him accompany you, but now you don't want it either. My money is wasted."

Cheng Yu felt that he was probably stupid abroad, "Do you still think I would want it?"

"I don't think so." Hua Rong said, "But I hope you want it, not necessarily to be a stand-in, but at least it makes people feel like you gave up Lin Anlan instead of dying on this tree."

"I'll be fine."

"Look at what you look like, and then you say you'll be fine."

"I just need some time."

"How long? Eight years is not enough. How long do you need?"

Cheng Yu didn't speak. He didn't know how long it would take. Falling in love with someone could be a moment, but giving up on someone could be a lifetime.

If Lin Anlan gets married, he spends his whole life giving up on him, not for forgetting, but for giving up, then he should give up.

Xu Sheng's eyes dimmed instantly when he saw him, there was no light in his eyes, he was dead, glared at Hua Rong, opened the cover of the porridge and pushed it in front of Cheng Yu, "Don't listen to him, come, eat first, fall in love Well, talk about it if you like, it's not that Lin Anlan is single now, you are also single, as long as you are single, there is always a chance."

He put the spoon away, and placed the shrimp dumplings and barbecued pork buns next to the porridge, "Eat first."

"Thank you." Cheng Yu whispered.

Seeing him like this, Hua Rong couldn't help feeling annoyed, he put the cigarette out in the ashtray, "If you don't like what happened yesterday, I can apologize to you, but you should think about my words carefully, you have to think for yourself first. Come out, you can come out. If you want to be trapped in Lin Anlan for the rest of your life, who can help you? Lin Anlan will not be uncomfortable at that time, only you and our friends will suffer. "

"I know."

"Let's eat." Hua Rong raised his chin, "The porridge should be cold in a while."

Cheng Yu drank a bowl of porridge in silence, ate a few more shrimp dumplings, and then stopped eating.

Hua Rong and Xu Sheng asked him to go out to play tomorrow, Cheng Yu refused, Hua Rong was speechless, "Look at it, I know that 'I know' means you have read the next one and don't take it seriously at all. What are you doing staying at home every day? Feeling dejected? The key is that Lin Anlan can't see either, why don't you go out with us and relax, maybe you can see him again."

"I have something to do tomorrow."

"What's the matter?" Hua Rong didn't believe it.

"Work."

"Don't you work until the fifteenth day of the first lunar month?"

"extra work."

"what?"

"Well." Cheng Yu nodded, "I just received the news."

"real?"

"Why did I lie to you about this?"

Only then did Hua Rong believe, "Okay, I didn't expect you to be in the mood to work, it's not easy."

Cheng Yu: ...he really didn't.

"Okay." Cheng Yu looked at his watch, "I have to go to the study to prepare for my work tomorrow. It's getting late. If you want to rest, you can go to the guest room. You are familiar with this house, so you can take what you want to eat."

After he finished speaking, he stood up, remembered something and said, "Don't go to the second bedroom, that's his bedroom."

Hua Rong:  …

Xu Sheng stood up, "We just came to see you, worried about your current state. Now that we're done, Hua Rong and I will leave. If you have anything to do, call us."

"also."

Cheng Yu escorted them out and saw that they had entered the elevator, so he turned around and walked back.

He went to the study and dug out a copy of the lyrics from the drawer. He didn't lie to Hua Rong and Xu Sheng. He really had something to do. When "Yun Yun" was filmed, he showed the music director the lyrics he wrote and asked him, "Can you treat this song as an interlude or ending song?"

The music director and Director Zhang read his lyrics together, and Director Zhang asked him, "Did you write it according to Jing Huan's mood?"

Cheng Yu nodded.

But it wasn't. It was written according to his mood. When Lin Anlan participated in the campus singer competition that year, he sat in the audience and watched Lin Anlan glow on the stage. His eyes were clear and bright, but he couldn't see it. He himself, sad in his heart, wrote this song after returning to the dormitory.

He wrote about his own mood, but his mood was too similar to Jing Huan's, so it was actually similar to Jing Huan's.

It is all love but can't get it, and seek it in vain.

Later, Director Zhang told him, "The lyrics can be used, and can be made into the ending song, after the scene where Jing Huan finally bowed his head in the direction of Gu Shuyu in the heavy snow."

"Okay." Cheng Yu said excitedly.

He filmed this film with a strong purpose, as if he was filming his own love memorial. He wanted to present this film with the best and no regrets. Now the songs he once wrote for them can also appear here. In the movie, for him, it was an unexpected success.

Cheng Yu was very happy and grateful.

When he was just looking at WeChat, he realized that the music director had sent him WeChat and asked him if he could try to sing the song himself.

[Director Zhang means that you are the actor of Jing Huan, you know his feelings better, and you can sing more emotionally, and the lyrics of this song are written by yourself, and you can sing them. as a promotional selling point. 】

Cheng Yu didn't expect this song to be sung by him. He wrote the lyrics himself, found a professional friend to compose the song, and handed it over to the music director. As for the singer, Cheng Yu didn't mind. There is a specialization in the art industry, and he is not a singer, so he never thought of giving the ending song to the movie record by himself.

But...it doesn't seem to be impossible.

Cheng Yu looked at the lyrics he had written and was silent for a long time, and finally took out the pen and changed a few sentences.

He took a photo, sent the new lyrics to the music director and Director Zhang, and asked them how many words he changed, is it ok?

Director Zhang looked at the newly changed lyrics, and there was not much change, except that some of the lyrics of the chorus were slightly changed, which looked more sad, but it was more in line with Jing Huan's mood.

【Can. 】 Director Zhang replied to him.

Cheng Yu: [Then I will record a demo tomorrow for you and Director Wang. 】

Director Wang is the music director of the film.

Director Zhang was very happy to see him so active: [Okay, Xiao Cheng, come on. 】

【Um. 】

Cheng Yu contacted his friend and asked him to free up the time and the recording studio, saying that he would go there tomorrow.

The other party was surprised, but still agreed, "OK."

Cheng Yu had been practicing songs all night. At the beginning, he couldn't sing at all. He opened his mouth, but he couldn't sing. He was in a bad mood these days and was very depressed. For him, singing, Some strong people are difficult.

He couldn't even open his mouth to talk, so how could he sing lyrics with his own feelings.

He could only sing in his heart over and over again, softly, softly, almost silently.

He once sang a song to Lin Anlan. At that time, he was in a good mood. He sang it very easily. After singing, he and Lin Anlan returned to the house where they lived and kissed Lin Anlan.

But now, he can hardly sing because he is in a bad mood. Without Lin Anlan, what he likes, in the end, is nothing.

Cheng Yu certainly knew that he should come out. Eight years later, he should have come out long ago. He has met so many people, so many people who like him, so many excellent people, but he can't do it.

He knew that Hua Rong and Xu Sheng were worried about him, and he also knew that Yu Heng would not want to see him like this. He knew everything, but he had no choice.

Eight years, thousands of days and months, all his feelings have been accumulated on Lin Anlan. Lin Anlan has long since become his obsession, a part of his heart.

The taste of unrequited love is unpleasant, but the taste of giving up him is even more unpleasant.

Cheng Yu would rather he grow a cocoon and form a scar on his heart than gouge him out of his heart.

His relationship was unhealthy, never healthy, he knew, but he couldn't cure it.

He quietly sang the song he wrote in his heart, and then fell asleep lightly in the early morning.

Duan Yuze received a call from Cheng Yu and heard that he had arrived, so he immediately went downstairs and picked up someone.

He is a singer, and if there must be an attribute in front of this sentence, then he is a singer-songwriter.

Cheng Yu's first movie debut was an episode sung by Duan Yuze. Cheng Yu liked it very much, and Duan Yuze also liked his performance very much. The two got to know each other.

"My god." Duan Yuze watched him take off his mask and sunglasses, and exclaimed, "How did you spend this year? You're broken up, how did it happen?"

Cheng Yu: ...it's heartbreaking, isn't it?

Duan Yuze sighed, "Tell me honestly, is your family dying, so you are going to cross the line to become a singer and make extra money?"

"Don't worry, if your studio collapses, our family won't fail either."

"That's good." Duan Yuze patted his chest, "I was just about to tell you that the record market is sluggish, you can't make much money across the line, and you can only make money from your fans if you die."

"Then you haven't changed your career yet?" Cheng Yu looked at him.

"It's not for love, you know how to generate electricity for love? I'm a musician!"

"Oh."

"That's it?" Duan Yuze felt that his state was really wrong, it was too problematic, "Did something happen to you?"

"no."

"But you don't usually do that."

"Yes?"

"Yeah, you usually hear me say this, so you should mock me."

"So you want to ridicule?" Cheng Yu was expressionless, "You are really different."

Duan Yuze:  …

Duan Yuze didn't want to talk to him anymore. With his wicked appearance, he must be blind to think something happened to Cheng Yu!

He took Cheng Yu to his recording studio, pointed not far away and said to Cheng Yu, "Just stand there, put on your headphones, and sing into the microphone."

Cheng Yu saw him sitting down and started to adjust the equipment, only to feel that he couldn't sing anything.

"Aren't you going out?"

Duan Yuze: "?? Of course I won't go out. How can you record when I go out?"

Cheng Yu was silent.

"Aren't you embarrassed?" Duan Yuze asked him, "Just treat me as air and sing you, and I won't give you a comment."

Cheng Yu put on the earphones, but he still felt awkward.

Duan Yuze adjusted the equipment and said to him, "Okay."

Cheng Yu stood in front of the microphone, looked at the microphone, opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound.

Duan Yuze waited for him to sing the first sentence, but he did not wait for a long time.

"You...forgot your words?" he guessed.

Cheng Yu shook his head.

"Then are you...?"

Cheng Yu didn't know what to say, he said, "Let's do it all over again."

"Okay." Duan Yuze looked at his expression and didn't dare to ask more.

Cheng Yu exhaled, took another deep breath, clenched his fist, and opened his mouth again after Duan Yuze said "ok".

His voice was very low, almost inaudible. Duan Yuze interrupted him helplessly, "Are you learning how to buzz mosquitoes? Sing louder and I won't laugh at you. You can sing with confidence."

He walked up to Cheng Yu, took off Cheng Yu's earphones, and instructed him, "Learn from me."

"Ah~"

Cheng Yu:  …

"Hurry up." Duan Yuze urged.

Cheng Yu had to open his mouth awkwardly, "Ah."

"A louder voice, learn from me, ah~"

"what."

"Open your throat, ah~"

Cheng Yu: "Ah~"

Duan Yuze took him to practice for a long time, and then he adjusted his voice, "That's it, sing well."

He sat back down again.

Cheng Yu finally seemed to have a voice.

He opened his mouth and sang his song to the microphone word by word.

He sings:

"Looking back

it's your smile

worry free

I want to crush the clouds"

He sings:

"I stole a key from time

Ask the time to borrow some fate

I turn over my youth

Crush the years

pity you

pity you

no way back"

He sings:

"Eternal life

bustling

yelling

In the end we went our separate ways"

He sings:

"I use Shaohua to forge a lock

Ask the years for a love again

I sealed the end of the road

Concatenate the lies

tell you

tell you

silent again"

His grief and sadness were like weeping and complaining, and he obviously did not have any skills, but because his feelings were too sincere, Duan Yuze was amazed.

The melody of this song was composed by him. Cheng Yu knew the melody of the climax chorus, but he couldn't think of the previous melody, so Duan Yuze composed the previous melody for him.

He had tried singing it himself, and he was very satisfied, but now, when he listened to Cheng Yu singing this song, he realized that it was Cheng Yu who was the most suitable to sing this song.

He has no singing skills, but his voice is in good condition, his emotions are abundant, he sings very slowly, as if he is telling a story, as if he is saving a lover, he sings silently and quietly, fades away All the clutter and hustle and bustle left only the pale and naked sadness and love that hit the hearts of the people.

He was in love, Duan Yuze thought, Cheng Yu was in love, that's why he is like this, and that's why his songs are so uncomfortable.

He was brokenhearted, and the emotion in his voice betrayed him.