I paused and said again: "In fact, in this palace, it is better to rely on the emperor to rely on anyone. With the emperor's favor, naturally no one dares to bully you."

Haoyue nodded: "I wouldn't have been a beauty of the moon without a lady. It's just that the emperor didn't tell me twice in the past month, how can I rely on it."

"There are many women in the harem, who can attract the emperor. In addition to their beauty, they have to do what they like, or have their own uniqueness." I put the lychee in the entrance. This is the new concubine smile this year. Sweet and sweet, the meat has many nuclei, it is a good product for Lingnan's tribute.

Haoyue's eyes lit up and she stopped eating the lychees. "Haoyue asks Miss for advice."

I looked at her beautiful face: "Li Fei is good at dancing, Li Fei is good at horsemanship, and the concubine is light, but they are good at calligraphy. Many things can only be accomplished from elementary school, but some don't."

"What did the lady say?" Haoyue had expectation in her eyes.

"The emperor loves to drink tea. If you have your own uniqueness in the tea ceremony, you will surely attract the emperor's attention." I looked at her: "It's just that the maids always do things like cooking tea and boiling water. It's a nobleman, and I'm afraid I will surrender myself."

Haoyue smiled disapprovingly: "What's the matter? Before the lady lifted me up, haven't I always been a maid." She thought about it and laughed, looking at me like a coquettish cat: "I remember Miss knew A lot of special teas, let the young lady teach me."

I smiled indulgently at her: "Next time I bring some pen and ink, I will write to you, it is very complicated, and you can't remember it once."

Haoyue nodded happily, and soon left with satisfaction.

After that, Haoyue came a little bit more frequently than before, and I wrote her some tea-drinking methods that I knew or created. I don’t need these things anymore. Instead of burying them in my heart, I’d better teach Haoyue. In this way, she can get some love from Shen Xiyao. At least, Shen Xiyao will not forget her and have a thought in her. , In this way, her life in the harem will be better.

In fact, those methods of making tea are not difficult, they are just a word of "smart". It is good to work on water, tea, and heat. In order for her to master and display it quickly, I only gave her some simple and seasonal methods. After she got it, she was naturally happy.

I looked at Haoyue's smiling face, and felt a little more cherished myself. At least, I hadn't ended up completely useless.

Sure enough, Haoyue did the same several times when Shen Xiyao went to her palace, which was quite popular with Shen Xiyao, so the number of visits increased, and Haoyue's position in the harem gradually increased a lot.

It's just that, she saw me less often, at first it was once every half a month, and then it became once a month.

When the autumn wind blew, I had been in the cold palace for five months.

During this period, one thing has been overlooked by me. When I noticed it, it brought me not only shock, but also joy and worry.

That was the first day when autumn leaves swirled and fell from the branches. For a long time, I noticed something abnormal in myself, but didn't think much about it. I just thought that the life in the cold palace was completely different from the past, and the physical condition was normal because of this, not to mention that I hadn't gotten a serious illness.

However, that day, I sat under the eaves and watched the leaves as if dancing, slowly falling in the cool autumn breeze. The sunny sky was like a fine blue satin, without a trace of misplaced warp and weft, or even clouds. Not even half of it. This is the time when the autumn chrysanthemum first blooms. Even in such a forgotten place as Fanfare, there are actually a few small daisies blooming tremblingly under the corner of the wall, shyly and timidly fluttering in the wind, bringing them to the ruined palace wall. A touch of bright color.

The kite rises high in the sky. It is a pair of colorful mandarin duck kites, flying side by side in the sky, like a pair of beautiful couples, and like a pair of lovers, lingering.

Such a view is naturally a beautiful view of two rounds of people and moon in the eyes of proud people, and for me who is alone in the cold palace, it can also bring back happy memories of the past.

After watching for a long time, I feel a little dizzy. I stood up, planning to go to the well to get some water to drink. For the past few days, I only felt hot and cold on my body and greedy cold in my mouth. Leng Gong was deserted, so he could only drink some fresh water from the cold well. Even if he didn't even think about eating, the meals brought by Brother Luo were often unswallowed after a few mouthfuls.

After only a few steps, I felt dizzy, everything in front of me seemed to spin, and everything suddenly lost its substance. In an instant, there was another layer of sweat all over his body. Anxiety and worry rose in my heart, and I quickly helped a tree next to me to stop, but gradually lost strength on my legs, I could only slip off slowly, sitting under the tree and closing my eyes.

This is not the first time this situation has occurred. In the previous few days, vertigo would come on occasionally, but it was the first time that it was so powerful today.

After sitting for a long time, I only felt that the dizziness gradually faded and the sweat on my body disappeared. Then I opened my eyes and let out a long sigh of relief.

Just at this moment, an abandoned concubine from the cold palace threw a black cloth piece out of the window and landed not far from me. I glanced at it casually, and saw that the stained cloth was stained with red, lacquer-like blood, with a stench.

Suddenly, I couldn't help leaning over and vomiting, vomiting everything out of my stomach, it was bile, and then painful retching. I almost crawled away from the patch of cloth, struggling to the side of the well, and hitting half a bucket of water with all my strength. After taking a few sips, my stomach twitched. After burying his face in the water, his sanity finally became clearer.

I suddenly realized that the bright red color had not appeared on me for several months.

When I thought of this, it was as if I was splashed with cold water on my head in the scorching summer. Although the surroundings were hot, I felt that I was completely cold. I carefully recalled the few days I spent with Shen Xiyao in Huangjiacun, and I was entangled almost every day. And before that, because I was busy preparing for various trivial matters in Jiangnan, for more than a month, Xihe and I went to sleep quickly after turning off the lights, but there was nothing.

In this way, if I really get a pearl in my belly, then this child will only be Shen Xiyao's.

However, in a place like Fansi, it is difficult for me to save my life, let alone give birth to a child? But if he tried to let Shen Xiyao know, he wouldn't believe that this child is his blood, instead he would anger me and Xihe.

These thoughts flashed in my mind, and the flowing clouds that looked like a galloping horse passed by in the sky. All that was left was great joy, which made my tears fall involuntarily.

There is a child, whether it is Xihe or Shen Xiyao, it is my child. After I lost one, this child was of great significance to my life. I think I will grow old in the multiplication of death, until I die, I will not be reminded of. Then, as people grow slowly, if there is a child with him, watching it from babbling to toddling to having fun around the knees, it must be happy and content. When it gets older, I will find a way to contact my elder brothers, send it out secretly, and grow up in Ling's house. I believe that even if it does not have the identity of the prince and the prince, it will definitely be able to become a dragon and phoenix among the people, and have its own deeds. At the same time, with care, I won't be lonely anymore.

My hands are clasped on my lower abdomen. The most important thing now is to make sure that there really is a little life here. But how to determine? I recalled the symptoms that I had always experienced. I get tired easily, aches in my waist and abdomen, reluctant to eat, dizziness... There are still monthly letters that I haven't come for a few months. These all confirmed the existence of the child.

I think if this month's letter does not come again, then the existence of this child can be confirmed.

Thinking about it this way, all the difficulties in life are no longer difficult. I can hardly conceal a smile on my face. Although there are many discomforts on my body, they have been ignored. My only concern is my own diet. If the nutrition is not enough, how can I give birth to healthy children?

So in the evening, when Brother Zhao brought the food in, I resisted the surge in my stomach and ate all the food without any leftovers.

In the past month or so, the monthly letter still has not arrived, and I also experienced the reactions that I would have during pregnancy, such as fatigue, not thinking about food, and vomiting in the morning. But fortunately, it is not very serious. The cold palace is long and I don't need to do anything. So, most of the day, I sit on that tattered bed and try to rest as much as possible to keep the baby safe. Haoyue asked Haoyue to bring some needles and threads, only to say that she was fine and wanted to sew some winter clothes. She had no objections, and asked Brother Zhao to bring in after a few days. It is the most common cotton cloth in the palace, and it is mostly used to sew the clothes of lower palace people.

If it were in the past, even the subordinates of my Ling Mansion would not take it seriously. But at this time I feel that it is pure cotton cloth, and no matter how bad things are in the palace, it is much better than the folks. For this child who may be born in the cold palace, it is already good.

Just in case, I will soak the cloth in well water for three days, and then carefully wash it several times with the saponins brought to me by Brother Zhao, and then dry it under the sun before I dare to use it.

On this day, thick clouds in the sky rolled and dull and pressed down, and the wind swept past the door like a gust of howling, mixed with fallen leaves and dust, making the air full of the smell of mud, and looking up, it was gray. .

I was leaning against the bed, closing the stitches of a child’s coat, and the door squeaked, I quickly tucked the coat under the pillow, and took a light gray half-made female Confucian shirt from the side. Pick it up, hold the scissors and slowly cut the neckline.

"Miss, I brought some snacks." Haoyue's apricot red pinched outer skirt is densely embroidered with light pink albizia flowers, and a peacock with filigree dots on her head has a string of fine amethyst tassels. , There is a full smile on her face, making her pink face like a lotus in full bloom.

I looked at her increasingly gorgeous clothes, and remembered the first few times when she came, she chose simple and plain clothes for fear that I might see those brocade clothes. However, since Shen Xiyao gave her more and more love, she changed without realizing it.

"Sit down." I put aside my clothes and got out of bed to welcome her.

Haoyue held a lacquered bamboo woven food box with a double-decked color mandarin duck pattern in her hand. She put the food box on a small table aside, picked up the dress I was laying on the bedside, looked through it and laughed. Said: "Miss's hands are so skillful. Embroidered with orchids on this fabric really lifts it up."

I glanced lightly and said: "It should have been worn on the palace man, but at this time it has fallen into the dynasty. It will be worn on a useless person. It is a great grievance."

"Miss!" Haoyue put down the clothes hurriedly and came to me, frowning slightly: "It's me who is not good. Miss should wear Jin Luo's frowning phoenix dress. No matter how bad it is, it should not be worse than the brocade. , But I can only give the lady this kind of gray cotton cloth that palace people don't like to wear. It's useless to me." She said, weeping.