Knowing that she had misunderstood my meaning, I hurriedly took out the silk kerchief from her skirt to wipe her tears, and said: "I didn't mean that. Here, if there is no help from you, I will only wait for the one or two each quarter. A piece of clothing, it’s impossible to survive. I’m very satisfied to have such a cotton cloth."

"Really?" Haoyue raised a face with teardrops on her face, and asked in disbelief, "Isn't the young lady blaming Haoyue?"

I shook my head: "It's too late for me to thank you, so why is it so strange?"

I smiled, picked up the dress and pointed it to her: "Look, this fabric is off-white. What color silk thread embroiders with can only be crude, but only black silk thread embroidered with freehand ink orchids is true. The truth is better." My hand slowly rubbed the pattern, and the silk thread gave my finger a astringent feeling, just like my voice: "The emperor's longevity is coming. He is used to seeing the beauty in Jinyi, if there is an elegant and beautiful A woman is more pure and pure in a crowd of beautiful women." I stared at Haoyue's eyes: "If you talk about beauty, you are not as good as a concubine. If you talk about dignity, you are not as good as a concubine. And when it comes to weakness Naturally, no one can come to the right of Concubine Liu. Therefore, you must win by surprise."

Haoyue was taken aback, and almost blurted out: "How did the young lady know that I came for the emperor's longevity?"

I pressed the layer of coldness on my lips, looked at the wind that had stopped outside, and slowly said, "I don't know you are here for this, but I just thought that the Longevity Day is coming, reminding you."

Haoyue laughed: "The young lady is still amazing! No wonder the emperor is obsessed with you."

I just did not hear, and opened the food box: "What good food did I bring?"

Haoyue didn't continue the topic: "Miss's favorite Lingfen Frosted Sugar Cake, Song Fong Goose Roll, Beijing-style Chicken Pancake, and a piece of Rock Sugar Bird's Nest." She took out these one by one, in fact. Everything is on the first floor, I have seen it when I opened the lid.

I stirred the bird's nest porridge with rock sugar. There is a layer of cotton in the food box, so it can keep warm. At this time, it still feels slightly hot on the hand.

"Miss drank the porridge first, you can eat the others slowly." Haoyue said, taking the first layer away, revealing the second layer. A fishy smell rushed over my face with the unique aroma of celery. I just swallowed bird's nest porridge. At this moment, my stomach was surging like a sea wave at high tide, and I almost couldn't help vomiting.

I forcefully endured it, but my face was pale and I couldn't help shaking. Haoyue didn't look back at me, but carefully brought out the fish, dividing it into several portions with chopsticks, and said: "This is the new tribute of Taihu Lake this year. White fish, the meat is the most tender. I have a few of them. I thought that when I was at home, the lady only ate my steamed, so she quietly cooked it in the small kitchen. Miss quickly tasted it to see if it was the same. Taste." As she said, she brought the fish that was on the plate to me, with a smile on her face: "Miss, eat it quickly, the fish will be cold, and the fish will come out, and it will not taste good."

I looked at the steaming fish, Haoyue had separated the green onion and ginger, but there was parsley on the fish. The smell rushed to my forehead, and I couldn't help it anymore, putting down the bird's nest in my hand, and rushing out of the house like a life-threatening meal would make me sick.

I weakly supported a tree in the yard and vomited up everything I had eaten in my stomach. Only then did I feel clearer and clearer and lighter.

"Miss, what's the matter with you?" Haoyue's worried voice came from behind.

I slowly turned around, smiled slightly and said, "A few days ago, I ate some rotten food, which might hurt my stomach."

"Really?" Haoyue looked at me with a weird gaze, but didn't ask much. She just stepped forward, wiped the corners of my lips with a silk kerchief, and said peacefully: "Then I will find a doctor to show the young lady. Look."

I waved my hand again and again: "How can this work? If someone knows that you have met me in Fansi, the emperor will not spare you!"

"But I can't look at the young lady being sick but ignore it." Haoyue defended.

I took the kerchief from her hand and wiped it on myself, "It doesn't matter if my stomach is upset, I should pay attention to eating less or just some porridge these days. Don't influence yourself for me." I looked at her. : "If you are really worried, please prescribe some medicine from the hospital and send it to me quietly."

Haoyue nodded: "Then I'll go back first, and those snacks can be put, let's eat after the lady is better. Fish..." She hesitated: "I'm afraid that the fish will attract wild cats or others. Anyway, it's steamed, miss. Either eat it or throw it away."

I said "Um": "You made such a good fish by yourself, so I naturally have to eat it."

A satisfied smile appeared on Haoyue's face before she left.

When I returned to the room, I saw Ben's little dress completely pressed under the pillow, but at this moment a little sleeve was exposed. There was a sudden cold in my heart, and great anxiety surged.

Ten days later, it was Shen Xiyao's Longevity Day. This day, the autumn is high and fresh, the sky is as clear as the first-class sapphire, but there is a cool breeze, which is refreshing and happy.

I was standing behind a ruined building in Fanxi, and in front of me was a pool of autumn water, which was rippling by the wind. In the sky not far away, hundreds of colorful kites flew together. The tallest and largest one in the center was a golden dragon that was alive and surrounded by beasts. Afterwards, enchanting birds rose up around a golden phoenix. Finally, there are gorgeous flowers, with peonies the most prosperous.

The golden phoenix flies and flies, and the long phoenix tail is floating in the air. The phoenix tail must be decorated with gold powder and rhinestones, flashing a dazzling light in the air. Finally, Jinfeng and Jinlong met and stood tall in the sky.

Hundreds of birds and beasts gathered around the dragon and phoenix, adorning them in a circle like flowers. For a time, the sky was colorful, and there were clear reflections on the calm lake. It can make people's eyes wide open and engrave this amazing depth of field in the mind.

I looked at the beautiful King of Birds, his arrogant expression, elegant and beautiful figure, but I didn't know who was holding the kite string that controlled this phoenix.

The wind blew the long hair on my temples and entangled my eyes. I squeezed it with my hand, but found a tear on the back of my hand.

I closed my eyes and pressed my lower abdomen, where there was a slight pain, just like my heart.

A gust of wind blew violently, and there was a burst of exclamation over the water, followed by a loud cry. I opened my eyes and saw the phoenix flying higher and farther on the colorful sky, the colorful phoenix tail drifting, and soon disappeared into the sky of the plateau.

I was moved in my heart, unable to suppress the welling of tears. Was it God’s arrangement that caused the Phoenix kite to break and leave where it should be in the eyes of the world? Where did it fly? At least, will leave this palace. It would be great if I could break away from the invisible thread that trapped me and fly out of this high wall like it...

I thought Haoyue would definitely come after the Longevity Festival, but I didn't want to. After half a month passed, I never saw her. During this period, I made a few baby clothes and counted the days. If there is no difference, the child will be born in the early spring, giving me spring-like hope. But the spring is cold, and I only look forward to Haoyue at this time, and ask her to bring me some cotton.

At the same time, I also made two large skirts for myself to cover up my belly which will become more straight in the future.

One month after the Longevity Festival, when the days were getting colder, Haoyue finally came.

On the day she came, the night before, the rain continued to patter. Although the air in the courtyard was fresher, layers of chills were coming up. I was sitting on the bed hugging me, my lower abdomen was already slightly raised, but I was able to cover it with wide clothes.

The rain finally stopped during the day, and the yellow leaves on the trees were knocked down by the wind and rain overnight, and the ground was covered overnight. Looking out from the window, I only feel like a good cashmere blanket, embroidered with golden leaves. There is one such blanket in the "Autumn Light and Zhaoyang" Hall of the old residence of Ling Mansion. , Brown, brown, and black mixed greens embroider the scenery full of fallen leaves on the ground. When the sunlight shines through the window lattices, I can't feel the depression of autumn, but I just feel rich.

At this time, I felt a burst of chill on my body. Looking at the "blanket" made by nature, I couldn't feel the warmth again.

There was a sound of the bronze door being opened, because few people came, and the door was closed for many years. In the past, Brother Zhao was on duty when Haoyue came. Only when the corner door was opened, it was rare to hear the sound of the front door.

I tightened my clothes tightly, and became frightened for no reason. I heard the voice of a woman talking by the door. Thinking of Brother Zhao resting today, the voice sounded like Haoyue was talking to someone, so I wore a coat and walked away. Got out.

It was indeed Haoyue, she said a few words to a guard, took out another thing to show him, and entered.

"Miss, why did you come out?" Haoyue looked up and saw me standing by the door, and exclaimed, "The wind is so strong outside, you go in."

I took a worried look at the guard who was closing, and said to her: "Brother Zhao is on vacation recently, what are you doing here? I have disturbed others. If the emperor knows about it, it would be bad for you."

Haoyue hid her mouth and smiled: "That person belongs to Brother Zhao. Last time he told me that this person can be trusted. If he is not there, he will wait for this person to come on duty."

But I was puzzled in my heart. Brother Zhao and I would meet for a short time every day, and occasionally say a few words, but never heard him mention that there are trustworthy people in this team of dying guards.

But I didn't click it, only followed Haoyue into the house.

"Miss," Haoyue turned her back to me, looked around and said lightly: "Haoyue has always had a question."

"You said." I took the stool and sat down and looked at her.

Her eyes were a little evasive, her hand holding the food container tightened and she said, "Miss, do you regret it?"

"What do you regret?" I asked, taking a sip of cold water from the teapot.

"I regret what I did in the first place, in exchange for today's end." Haoyue looked at me.

I was surprised that she was so straightforward and totally inconsistent with her old personality, but still replied: "If you regret it, you will naturally have some. But what's the use?"

What I regret is that I shouldn’t have stayed by the river when Shen Xiyao left; what I regret is that I should not promise Xi He to go to the southwest battlefield, but should go to Jiangnan as soon as possible; what I regret is that I should Cruelly refused Xi He's company; what I regret is that I should kill myself immediately after the abortion; what I regret is that I should either kill Shen Xiyao or kill myself that night...

But I have never regretted that the confinement that I have received due to the company with Xihe is dying.

But Haoyue seemed to have misunderstood what I meant. She rolled her eyes and said faintly: "If the emperor asks the lady to return to Kunning Palace, what would the lady wish?"

I was shocked, I never thought about this problem. However, if I want to return to Kunning Palace, am I willing?

The lower abdomen moved gently like a small fish spitting bubbles, and my face couldn't help showing a huge joy. If it was for this child, I would go up to the pan under the mountain, let alone go back to Kunning Palace.

"Looking like this, the young lady is willing." Haoyue didn't wait for me to speak, lowered her head and muttered: "Yes, only the young lady is the only concern in the emperor's heart, the only beautiful woman in his eyes. What are we?"