Chapter 368 I want to consider her

   "Ke Xiangxiang said that it can be operated on, you will be well after the operation..." Wang Guiying said.

  "She said that it can be operated on, but there is no equipment at all. The iron piece in my brain will still move. If one day cuts my blood vessel, I will die..."

   "But, wouldn’t it be better to have Xiangxiang by your side?"

   "I don't want to see her sad for me, I don't want the last memories I bring him to be painful..." Gu Zhennan's face was sad, his lips were pressed tightly, his fingers were tightly clenched, his joints were slightly white because of his force.

   "But you broke her heart like this. Didn't you see how sad she was just now?" Wang Guiying shook her head.

Gu Zhennan looked sad, "The long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain. She is disappointed with me. Maybe she won't be so uncomfortable in the future. Maybe she will forget me sooner... Mother, in fact, my heart is also very painful. I watched her cry just now. My heart is cut!"

"She usually laughs a lot and is a lively person, but you look at her during this time, in order to take care of me, she is so cautious, walking on thin ice, she wants to look at my face, for fear that I will be unhappy and live so hard. I can't bear to..."

  "Then you treat her better!" Wang Guiying couldn't understand.

   "I can't control myself." Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, "I feel very useless. You don't know, mother, seeing her live so trembling and loving so humble, I hate myself..."

   "How proud she was originally, living so wanton and full of spirit, but because of me, she can only humble her breath, dare not speak loudly, dare not laugh, she is not her anymore, I can't ruin her!"

   "She is only in short-term pain when she leaves me now. After a long time, maybe she can forget me. I hope she can be happy..."

   "But Zhennan, what do you do? You are too bitter?" Wang Guiying couldn't cry.

   "Since you came to our house when you were eight years old, you haven't had a good life. Now it's hard to get better, but you..." Wang Guiying burst into tears, "It's our Gu family that I am sorry for you."

   "Mother..." Gu Zhennan's tears also flowed down.

"I still remember when my father and I were helping others to dig a drain. You were so small, dressed in tatters, your face was dark and thin, and your eyes were sunken from hunger. You swallowed when you saw us eating. ..."

  Wang Guiying was crying while recalling the past, "Your father will give you his own food, you kneel down and kowtow to us, saying that you are willing to be a child for us, saying that your surname is Gu, just like us..."

   "At that time, your father and I really thought that you were given to us by God. We had no children for so many years. I don't know how many people laughed at me. Now that you are here, we finally have children, and your father has a smile."

  "You are such a lucky star. I was pregnant with Zhendong not long after you came here. You don't know how happy my father and I are!" Wang Guiying said while wiping away tears.

"At that time, you were so young, you rushed to help us, and didn’t dare to eat more. I know you are afraid that we will have our own children and don’t want you. But you are the lucky star of our family, why would we not want it? You, we treat you as our own son..."

  Gu Zhennan’s eyes were also flushed.

  He ran out of home that year, and then wandered around. When he was thirsty, he grabbed some water by the ditch. When he was hungry, he ran through the trash can to find food, climbed the train, and went wherever he went, until he met Gu Jianguo and his wife.

  In fact, he observed them for several days, and knew that they were good people and had no children before he appeared in front of them.

   Said his surname was Gu, Gu Zhennan, and said that he could be their son.

  They did not dislike themselves in the slightest, and took care of themselves as if they were sons.

   But he was still very scared, for fear that they would not want himself, so he worked very hard, eat less and cook a lot, he wanted to have a home.

"Later, your father was in poor health and fell ill. We went home. We left home for ten years and brought you and Zhendong back. No one knew that you were not our own, and we never told others... "

   "I know, mother, I have been very grateful for so many years..."

"But our family is sorry for you, because of your father’s illness, you suffered a lot in those years, and the burden of the family was on you. Later, you couldn’t get into college. It was a delay for all these years. If it weren’t for us, you It won't be so bitter..."

"No, no, if I hadn't had you, I would have died of freezing and starvation..." Gu Zhennan shook his head, his eyes were also red, "Mother, you gave me a home and gave me warmth. Come to this home. Never regretted..."

"But you are not happy. You have never laughed. You still have a smile on your face when you have Xiangxiang in the past two years. But why did you drive her away? I can see that Xiangxiang treats you. Really emotional, she doesn't care about those things, why do you want to..."

  Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, “Mother, she doesn’t care about it, but I have to think about her. I don’t want to see her unhappy in life, and I don’t want her to live carefully..."

   "But child, you have suffered yourself..." Wang Guiying burst into tears.

   "I..., huh!" Gu Zhennan smiled sadly, "Maybe I won't live long, I don't care, but I may not be able to do my filial piety for you..."

  "Zhennan, don't say that, you make my mother feel so hurt, Zhennan." Wang Guiying was deeply saddened.

"Mother, I think it over. If I die, the cement factory will be left to Zhendong. There is a big factory on my oilfield that I want to give to Xiangxiang. Mother, don't blame me, all I have left for her is this... …"

  "Don't talk about Zhennan, we don't want these, I just want you to be well..." Wang Guiying burst into tears.

  ……

  Guo Xiang ran out of the house. It was obviously summer, but the wind blew on him, but there was a bone-chilling chill. His mind was white, like a heavy snow falling. The whole person was as cold as being wrapped in snow.

  She burst into tears and ran to Ji Changlin, shocking him.

   "What's the matter, it's Zhennan..."

   "No!" Guo Xiang desperately shook his head, "Zhennan doesn't want me anymore, he wants to divorce me..."

   "Why?" Ji Changlin was shocked.

   "I don't know, I don't know, Master, what did I do wrong?" Guo Xiang squatted down crying, covering his face with his hands, tears streaming from the seams of his hands.

   "He... must not want to drag you down, don't want you to suffer, he is not the kind of ruthless person..." Ji Changlin sighed.

   "But I am willing, I am not afraid of suffering, I am willing to bear it with him!" Guo Xiang cried, "Why can't he understand me? I am willing to change for him, willing to..."

  "This may be the reason why he wants to separate. He doesn't want you to change for him. He thinks you are living too hard..."

"But I don't find it hard. I'm willing to take a 10,000 step back. Even if he really can't be cured, I'm willing to spend his last time with him. Why did he drive me away?" Guo Xiang couldn't understand.

  (End of this chapter)