I recalled everything I encountered. ▼ ● ◆ ▲

I was defeated in the walk of consciousness in the fight against alienating Youjiang. When I woke up again, I was already in the operating room.

When I saw Dr. Ruan Li again, the impression she gave me was slightly different from what I felt after I was separated from it, and the imagination brought about by the changes in the peninsula afterwards.

I think I can find this difference and sort out the reasons behind it.

"Am I sick?" I sorted out everything from the perspective of "illness" and used Dr. Ruan Li's most common logic to imagine the meaning of this situation in her perspective. All my thoughts and impressions on Dr. Ruan Li are based on the information I have personally experienced, seen, and contacted. However, in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, there are probably many mistakes and omissions. An illusion.

It does n’t matter whether I admit it is an illusion or not. What matters is what Dr. Ruan Li can see, what she has been in contact with, and what she can see, experience, touch and feel about herself. Based on what kind of logical way of thinking to integrate.

I have known for a long time that the world in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li is completely different from the world in my eyes.

Perhaps, in some cases, we have all seen the same phenomenon, but there is a clear distinction between understanding these phenomena.

"Yes, I'm sick." Dr. Ruan Li said this, and it seemed a bit of a headache. "It's not your fault. I underestimated the influence of white Claudia. Although the medicinal properties of the paradise once produced effects, they were further stimulated. Your mental and physical changes, and your condition has changed. "

"That is to say?" I asked along her words. ◆

"That is to say, your condition has not deteriorated, but it is a bit different from before. And I can't find a solution here at the moment." Dr. Ruan Li answered seriously.

I was silent for a few seconds and imagined the premise that Dr. Ruan Li would say such things.

Obviously, everything I encountered before. Perhaps a large part of it does not exist in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li. It is a pathological hallucination. Excessive reaction in hallucinations.

I do n’t know how much of what is being born on the peninsula is "non-existent" to Dr. Ruan Li. Because, in my own experience. All these are "facts" that are being born, not "illusions" caused by illness.

"I don't know where to start." I said.

Dr. Ruan Li nodded calmly and replied: "I know you will. I've been used to it, and I can't distinguish between hallucinations and reality. This is the most common condition. This time the condition has changed due to the effect of the new drug. Be prepared, Achuan. "While talking, she pulled open the side drawer and handed over the patient's clothing.

I removed the needle from my body. Dressed neatly, she followed her out of the operating room. As I thought, the operating room was underground. We walked up the spiral staircase for ten meters, completely out of the atmosphere surrounded by high-tech equipment, and entered a small cabin with ordinary decoration and no bright spots. Looking out from the window in the house, I can't see any scenery, some are just the darkness surrounded by the night, this darkness is so rich. I can't see the outline of anything, it's like the whole world, only this small house where we are.

"What do you see?" Dr. Ruan Li's voice rang in the back, and suddenly I felt shocked. It was as if I had never noticed her approach, and I also looked out for a moment, forgetting that she was here. ▼ ● ◆ ▲ I do n’t know exactly what happened, but my heart was beating.

Her voice is like a ghost, but. As a mystery expert, I haven't been surprised by ghosts and ghosts for a long time.

I was also a bit surprised by my excessive sensitivity at this time.

I felt very clearly that there was a cool breath on my back.

"I didn't see anything. It was dark outside." I couldn't help telling the truth.

I used the light in the house to look at the reflection on the glass. Dr. Ruan Li's voice was near my ear, but the glass reflected the outline of the utensils in the house, but there was no trace of human shape. I turned my head hard, but I saw that Dr. Ruan Li was indeed standing near, and behind her was a dressing mirror, and her real figure was reflected in the mirror. However, there was still a kind of absurdity in my heart. Mysterious emotions emerged—Dr. Ruan Li was in the mirror, but not me.

I seemed to be in a trance. I felt that I was awake again in a short time. I didn't know when I had left the window and deviated from the mirror. I only saw Dr. Ruan Li standing in front of the window sill where I was originally, staring at the scenery outside. That look made me feel that there was something outside—however, I saw from here that the outside was still nothing. Dark.

I heard her say, "Achuan, do you remember what we experienced before we separated?"

Of course I remember that we encountered the four-day courtyard Gamma Coconut and witnessed the scene of her 4 billion black waters surrounding the peninsula. The sacrifice of four billion people made Dr. Ruan Li feel angry, desperate, and the huge and complex emotions made the coming of the end more clear, and also activated her firmer will to go through a series of further experiments on "paradise" To find a way of revenge. Afterwards, we were divided, her fate was unknown, and just after she left, the entire peninsula was almost completely razed to the ground in the fierce battles that followed. ■ ▼ ■ ● .ww. ■ Just from the desolate misery, if the laboratory is not placed underground, I do n’t think ordinary people have a chance to survive.

Although in my heart, I firmly believe that Dr. Ruan Li will not be killed by this terrible battle, but I can't imagine how she can guarantee her survival and experiment in such a cruel environment.

However, she is now in front of her at this moment, only this one, I do not think it is an illusion. Even just now, I experienced another mysterious experience.

If I exist in this room, and Dr. Ruan Li, who is talking to me, also exists, then all the "non-existence" I see and feel can only be an illusion.

My heart was beating sharply for a while, but it was calm again, but the strange smell that permeated into this room and permeated into the conversation between her and her was still lingering anyway.

"A huge amount of black water surrounds the whole peninsula. A woman called Si Tian Yuan Jia coconut ... like a ghost." I simply answered Dr. Ruan Li's question.

"In your eyes at that time. How do you think of me at that time?" Dr. Ruan Li looked over her face, her question, her eyes, the half face illuminated by the lights. And the other half of the face that I can't see, it only makes me feel tight in my throat.

"You are very angry. You swore to defeat that woman and use the paradise to crack the black water." I think my voice is a bit difficult, but this is not really a difficult question to answer.

Dr. Ruan Li paused. Say to me: "Your symptoms began at that time, but I didn't notice it at that time."

"What?" I faintly felt as if I knew what Dr. Ruan Li meant. ⊥Net,

"Black water, woman, what we see is the same, but how do you feel ..." Dr. Ruan Li said here, seeming to be thinking. How to make the explanation simpler: "What you see, feel, and have a slight deviation from the real situation. This deviation does not cause your understanding error, but it is the basis of a series of subsequent errors."

"Error?" The more she said, the more I didn't understand where I was, I was wrong, or from where I started, I saw hallucinations-because. From the perspective of Dr. Ruan Li's vision, "illusion" is a real thing for me.

"Maybe it's wrong, but it's not quite correct." Dr. Ruan Li shook his head and said: "There are only deviations in cognition. The accumulation of these deviations will make the world you and I see very different.

"I understand this, mom." I said.

"Now there is an example: You said that there was nothing outside the house, it was completely dark." Dr. Ruan Li's words contained deep meaning.

"Isn't that true? Mom. What's outside of the house?" I couldn't help but squeezed my fingers, and asked with a trace of nervousness.

What Dr. Ruan Li opened his mouth said. I didn't hear clearly. I felt like I was in a trance again. When I tried to wake myself up, I was standing in front of the window sill again, and Dr. Ruan Li's voice came from the side and back. It made me feel that the position of me and her has not changed as it was originally. However, the reflection on the glass showed the outline of Dr. Ruan Li.

Suddenly, the light from the window burst into the sky, like a sword slashing towards the shady curtain, tearing away the darkness like nothing. Under the winding, purple-red thunder snake, there are suddenly bright scenes-heavy dark clouds, uproarious rain, torrential water flowing like a stream, trees and grass slammed, and covered with dirt, There was only one faintly outlined road-all squeezed into my eyes in this shiny room.

Although there are many differences from the scenes I saw in the past, the only familiarity made me intuitively understand that I am still on the peninsula. The place where the house is located is somewhere on the peninsula. However, after a fierce battle with Moon God and Alienated Youjiang, this scenery should have disappeared. Even if there are remnants, it should be extremely remote, close to the peninsula, but not flooded by black water. However, how did she cross such a long distance in the short time between me and Dr. Ruan Li? And how did I come to this place after I was hit hard by the alienated Youjiang's consciousness walk?

In my understanding, I will wake up on the operating table, see Dr. Ruan Li on such occasions, and in this room, see the untouched peninsula scenery outside the window, These are extremely incredible situations.

The scene outside the window appeared only at the moment when the lightning burst, and then it was engulfed in the darkness. That darkness obscures all vitality, as if seen before, is the real illusion.

I opened my eyes wide, but I couldn't see anything anymore.

"This is White Claudia's ... I investigated a lot of information, all ... the hallucinations seen by the patient will make him as immersive ..." Dr. Ruan Li's voice came and went, I heard It ’s not complete, but it ’s about what she meant. The basis of Dr. Ruan Li ’s judgment on these strange things is still from the scientific level she knows, and the core is still "White Claudia".

What I see and feel this series of strange situations is still regarded as the result of "illness".

I shook my head vigorously, trying to throw these complicated things into my mind. For me, what she and I have seen, the difference between them, what kind of principle is it based on, or what is the essential meaning of these differences, it is not particularly important. Because, even if I accept Dr. Ruan Li's statement completely, it does not have any positive effect on my "illness".

I think that Dr. Ruan Li said this to me, trying to reverse my judgment on "illusion" and "truth", which was just her habit as a psychologist. As she said, she tried to "heal" me, but never succeeded in a real sense. It ’s not that I do n’t cooperate. The bigger reason lies in the severity of the condition, the mechanism of the disease, and the unpredictable deterioration.

If she attributed all her failures to White Claudia, then, before she fully understood White Claudia, I do n’t think she had any way.

What I want to know the most is just what stage her experiment with "paradise" has reached, no matter how different the world is in our eyes. She, like me, saw Blackwater and Si Tian Yuan Gamma Coconut. This cannot be changed-in her words, she was also infected with White Claudia at this time, but her condition was not me. It's so serious.

Paradise, Blackwater and Si Tianyuan Gamma Coconut are our connection points and also where our observations cross.

This kind of thinking calmed me down again ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ I came to the window and sat down on a chair. Dr. Ruan Li also sat opposite. She and I looked at each other, and the situation I was in suddenly gave me a sense of sight, as if it was very common in the past. I am like a patient waiting for a psychologist to diagnose.

In my eyes, only the small circle where I was sitting with her was bright, as if there were two spotlights hitting us. The scene inside the house outside was all dim and blurred.

"The erosion of white Claudia will cause people to have hallucinations, but these hallucinations have complex realistic foundations, which are the information that individuals have, the information that individuals receive instantly, the information that people interact with each other, people The information interacting with nature even includes the information generated by White Claudia ’s own activities, which is the result of a complex and orderly combination on the subconscious level. This combination is purposeful and based on The understanding of life science can also be regarded as being beneficial to Claudia White for the time being. "Dr. Ruan Li's voice became very clear." Can you understand this point? Achuan. "(Unfinished to be continued.)

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