I do n’t know what happened to the cabin where I and Dr. Nguyen Li looked from the inside, as if the entire peninsula was still in a storm, not a temporary data hedge space. There is a strange mismatch between my impression of the peninsula and the feeling it brings me here. I do n’t know what scene I see in front of me, which one is real, which one is unreal, or where this hut is located, is a special space in the entire Las Vegas repeater, and this The space exists only because Dr. Ruan Li is here.

However, I did not feel entangled in this, because in the mysterious world, there are many phenomena that are even elusive even if they have racked their brains, imagined them with extreme imagination, exhausted all their own roots, and exhausted the crystallization of modern human scientific civilization. In many cases, looking at it with the philosophy of idealism and speculating with the idea of ​​pure spiritual world, it can give people a more thorough feeling-even if it is this thorough, it will at some point make people feel unable to Tell the truth.

Treating all confusion as "mystery", using the concept of "mystery" itself to describe your ignorance, can always make people confused and not so desperate.

Dr. Ruan Li is here, and I also exist here. No matter how weird it is, it is more like a safe and calm shelter than other places. There are of course secrets, but it is not these secrets that I am after.

The conversation between me and Dr. Ruan Li did not stem from the fact that I had to figure out my own situation, but that she always gave me an urgent feeling and wanted to tell me these things. She let me know that she was a patient, and she repeatedly emphasized that I am a patient, and I know very well that what she is going to tell next is still "Gaochuan is a patient." If I listen to this concept for the first time, I will certainly resist it. But now, I think I can listen to Dr. Ruan Li's words, but it will bring myself a sense of "daily" calmness.

I am very clear about her account. For me. And my listening is for her.

Dr. Ruan Li needs a listener, and I am her only listener in this world. Before I save anything, this is the only thing I can do for her.

I was sitting right across from Dr. Ruan Li. It is like a mental patient who is asked by a psychologist.

In this hut nowhere, full of immediate sight, in the layers of weirdness and gloom, there is a trance warmth.

"The erosion of white Claudia will cause people to have hallucinations, but these hallucinations have complex realistic foundations, which are the information that individuals have, the information that individuals receive instantly, the information that people interact with each other, people Information that interacts with nature. It even includes the information generated by White Claudia ’s own activities. These kinds of information are the result of a complex and orderly combination on the subconscious level. This combination is purposeful and based on The understanding of life sciences can also be regarded as beneficial to white Claudia for the time being. "Dr. Ruan Li's voice became very clear." Can you understand this point? Achuan. "

I nodded.

"So, suppose we can screen and strip out the constituent information from this complex result by some means. In theory, we can present the information from the white Claudia. Taking a step back, since the patient produced Hallucinations are the result of a comprehensive composition of information. So. Among so many hallucinations, there must also be some in the formation of information, and the information from white Claudia occupies most of the hallucinations. "Dr. Ruan Li Say so.

I think she made sense and put it on the reality of the "virus" in the hospital. This theory can also be used to some extent, no. It should be said that the reality of hospital research on "viruses" is actually a large part of it, based on this theory. Because there is also a doctor Dr. Ruan Li in the hospital. She and Dr. Ruan Li in front of me have of course some kind of deep connection, and the ideas between them are also common in a certain sense.

It is precisely because the illusion that the patient sees does not only reflect the patient ’s own information, but the information is not true. Therefore, it is possible to form such a shared and huge world, because the essence of such a world is In the network of information interaction, there must be information about the culprit itself. More precisely, starting from the simplest cognition, pathogen information should also be the most critical part of guidance.

"Therefore, being able to see hallucinations also means having the basis to access this part of the information." Dr. Ruan Li said: "What is scary is not hallucinations, but even hallucinations. Without the possibility of a touch, It is so helpless to die. The reason why the seminar is to study the paradise is to be able to enter the patient's hallucinations in a more active way while keeping themselves normal, to understand the information that exists in these hallucinations, and to further feedback Come out and parse out part of the information about Claudia White. "

If she changed the name of "white Claudia" to the name of "virus" in her words, it is almost the reality of the hospital's observation mechanism of Dr. Ande and others' observation of the illusion of doomsday. It's just that the hospital actually has a ready-made "doom illusion". Although there is no drug like "paradise", there are other drugs, and even "gaochuan" and "color center" can directly connect to the "doom illusion "Subject.

The researchers of the reality in the hospital want to find out the secret of the "virus", which is completely compatible with the doctor Ruan Li and the seminar want to find out the secret of "white Claudia".

"I have been prepared for being eroded by white Claudia, and I have no conflict with seeing Black Water and the woman you called Si Tian Yuan Jia coconut." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Because, in a certain way In a sense, I saw the illusion that only you could see in the past, which means that I have access to white Claudia-of course, provided that I will not become as completely lost as other patients. Real and illusory abilities. "

I am silent about this, because, I cannot be sure that this approach is right or wrong. Even from the perspective of Dr. Ruan Li, her erosion by Claudia is not voluntary, just as ordinary people are infected during the widespread spread of infectious diseases.

"I've injected a paradise for myself." Dr. Ruan Li said: "I'm pretty sure that my understanding of Blackwater and Si Tian Yuan Jia Coconut is completely different from that of A Chuan."

"I know." I said.

"No, you don't understand." Dr. Ruan Li stared at me, saying one by one: "Blackwater and coconut palms in Sitianyuan are just a phenomenon, a comprehensive manifestation of disease information. It is our synthesis of this The part of the information that can be observed is intuitively understood. However, Achuan, you always think that the people who turned into black water have already died, and the coconut palms of Sitianyuan are the direct cause of this huge death. , Right? Do you think that I saw the despair, anger and revenge of Blackwater. It was the grievances and vents of the coconut palms of the Four Heavens Garden, right? "

She paused and continued to say to me in a serious and sincere tone: "Wrong, not like this, Achuan. The Coconut Palm in Sitianyuan does not exist, nor does the black water exist. Their appearance is just us. Part of the observed information is presented in an illusion that we can intuitively understand, but their essence is not just that-in fact. Humans have not become black water, but are sick, four billion black Water, just to show that 4 billion people have been eroded by Claudia, and these 4 billion patients have not died because the black water is still active and still smells of disease. Sitianyuanjia Coconut is not a human, nor is it what she looks like, a woman who has mastered the mysterious power. I think that she is the core embodiment of the source of infection. I want to deal with her, not out of grudges, but to make people recover, To prevent the death of the disease of 4 billion people. It is necessary to eradicate the source of the infection and feed back to the illusion, that is, the act of eradicating the coconut palm in Sitianyuan. "

Dr. Ruan Li's explanation made me react for a while, but felt that this was the best understanding of her situation. Yes, when she saw Black Water and Si Tian Yuan Gamma Coconut. When she was like me, on the way to leave the peninsula, encountered all kinds of incredible, I thought it would break her negation of "mystery", but in fact, she is mysterious about everything she sees, together with black water Observation and cognition of Ga coconut in Sitianyuan did not deviate from her original logic and perspective.

"It turns out that this is what my mother thought." I said, "Mom, do you think that eliminating the coconut palms in the Four Heavens Courtyard means defeating White Claudia and saving the world?"

"No, maybe it's far from being able to save the world. But at least it was an effective counterattack against the erosion of white Claudia. I think so. Anyway, if you defeat the Sitianyuan Jia coconut Is it possible to stop a malignant disease that affects 4 billion people at a time? Is n’t it also a meaningful victory? "Dr. Ruan Li smiled.

All the coldness, calmness, tension, distress and confusion before her disappeared in this smile. I can understand her, I understand what she means, all my rhetorical questions are not just because I have to confirm, but more still, I think she needs these introductions to let her deposit herself in everything, All brains are narrated. She uses the identity of a doctor to explain the mysterious and strange conditions for me, but I also use the psychological knowledge I have mastered to feel her heart.

Dr. Ruan Li said so much, but its content did not interfere much with me. In my opinion, Dr. Ruan Li thinks so, it is quite natural. There is a huge difference between Blackwater and Sitianyuan Gamma Coconut in my eyes and hers, this kind of thing has already been clear for a long time. For me, Dr. Ruan Li's smile is the most precious gift for this meeting.

"You will succeed, mother." I responded with my most sincere feelings.

"Achuan, I have an intuition, as long as I can complete the medicine for this large-scale epidemic, I will have the opportunity to cure you." Dr. Ruan Li's expression is full of hope and joy, "If there is no white Claudia The effects of the specific drugs that were injected before should be effective. Although this time it failed, as long as you understand the root cause of the change in your condition, you can definitely make up for it. "

"Yes, I believe you can, mother." I stared at Dr. Ruan Li's smiling and confident face, but had to stand up and said to her, "But, I should go now, mother."

The joy and smile on Dr. Ruan Li's face froze in an instant. She calmly, as if knowing that I would say so, said in a hard, non-violating command tone: "Last time you said so. You always said I think you have something you have to do, but in this world, there is nothing you have to do. I know what you see and think, I never intend to blame you, because, what you do The world you see is different. But— "

She said nothing, stood up, and came to me. With her body straight, I had to look up while sitting.

"However, you are just a patient. What you have to do, what you think is your responsibility, the world you see, and what you are trying to save, do not actually exist." Dr. Ruan Li top-down The bird ’s eye view is like God ’s gaze into the world: "It does n’t matter how many times you say it ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ It does n’t matter whether you accept it or not, I will continue to tell you: Achuan, you are just a patient, you It ’s not a monster or a monster that you want to defeat, it ’s just you. It ’s not a river you want to save, it ’s not Bajing, Misaki, and the so-called Marceau, and the colors and Dorothy that are made up, but only It's just you. "

I know very well that she would say that her attitude has not changed no matter how often. She thinks she is right, sometimes I think so. As she said, I am a patient, but whether I am sick or not, what I see is real or unreal. When I witness these people who are struggling in the end, the pain is endless. The reincarnation of a lover who feels unrestrained by infection and deterioration cannot be ignored.

I have many dreams, the biggest dream is to be a hero. Even if I ca n’t tell clearly, which of these disasters, doomsdays and sufferings actually exist, but even when Dr. Ruan Li in front of me told me that the battles I did were meaningless I also know very well that the world she observed is not the same as mine, and she is also walking in the process of the end, and my battle is by no means meaningless as she said. (To be continued.)

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