"I'm not too proud." Gu Yan said suddenly.

His voice was low and slightly dumb.

Obviously Yan Suizhi is remembering, but he seems to have gone through it again.

He seemed to see Yan Suizhi at the age of twenty in his memory becoming smaller, his eyebrows were green, his bones and bones showed the thinness of the young men's joints, and he always stood outside the crowd, gentle and lonely.

"Huh?" Yan Suizhi responded.

"I don't like to praise people, but you can tell me what you do in the future, whether it is interesting or boring, kind or dark," Gu Yan said slowly, "I want to hear it." "

The sound even caused a slight vibration in Yan Suizhi's body.

Knowing how to eat the marrow, Yan Suizhi had a thorough experience here in Gu Yan.

Such Gu Yan makes people unable to refuse, at least he can't refuse, and he even wants to respond more impulsively.

Yan Suizhi suddenly sighed softly and slowly relaxed her body.

For a moment, he closed his eyes and felt as if he had returned to more than 20 years ago, still living in the old house, the days passed slowly, he leaned lazily on the window sill while sketching , While telling the people in the house half-truth: "I had a little trouble the other day ..."

Very strange, in this moment of imagination, Gu Yan heard him complain.

And he didn't feel bad.

In the distance, a car passed by on the suspended road, and the lights cast a bright light inside the house, and disappeared suddenly.

Gu Yan felt the chin against his shoulder move, and it seemed to be a slight nod. Then, Yan Suizhi yelled.

After a while, as if confirming this response, Yan Suizhi said: "That medical case ... I know you are curious. In fact, don't be so careful, it's not something that can't be mentioned, I just don't know where to go from Speaking. "

Gu Yan had some unknown reasons at first. After hearing Yan Suizhi talk about the reasons for the death of his parents, he suddenly felt the edge.

Yan Suizhi's parents died of genetic surgery, and the case involved genetic surgery.

Gu Yan whispered, "That defendant ..."

His voice was a little hesitant. Yan Suizhi had already taken the lead. He gently "ah", as if he finally found the beginning: "The defendant, my client, Bill Lu ... once participated in my parents' That operation. "

Things are so ironic sometimes, he spent more than ten years because his parents' last words suppressed his inner suspicions.

The relapse took only one day.

Similar surgical accidents, similar results, related people. Even if there is no evidence, it is enough to make him fall back into the magic barrier of fifteen years old.

It's as if something that has been suppressed for so many years has finally found a catharsis point, whether it is right or wrong, as long as it can vent some.

He hoped that the defendant would go to jail, that he could experience all the things that the victim had experienced, and that he would know what it would be like to walk alone and walk for ten years alone, hoping to pay for one's life.

He also wanted to go to the cemetery of Heran Star and said to the people who slept there, "Look, my suspicions were not unreasonable. You have trained me to have such a long list of things, should I get up and say Sorry? Although it's ten years late, it's okay. I'm very generous and I can barely understand. "

It's a pity that the people who sleep there won't really hear it, and won't apologize and hug him as he wishes.

"Two days before I received the case, I could hardly sit down and read the information." Yan Suizhi chuckled a little self-deprecatingly. "That's probably my least calm and steady time. I can finally get in the information. , But found that the prosecution's evidence has some loopholes. "

Very subtle things may be missed by everyone in some rough judgment cases.

But when he saw it, it was hard to ignore.

Everyone who is concerned about the case, including himself, assumes that Bill Lu is guilty.

But the existence of the loophole-even if the loophole is due to the negligence of the prosecution itself, it means that there is a 1 in 10,000 possibility that Bill Lu is not guilty.

As long as there is such a possibility, he should defend it as a defense lawyer.

In those days, Yan Suizhi shut himself in the bedroom and sat in the dark for a long time.

"I actually had a lot of poisonous ideas, deliberately ignored those loopholes, and even used verbal traps to make others unable to find them, or took a few circles in the court, inducing the witness to unwittingly say some false testimony, to fill in those The loophole, if I want to, there are actually many ways to nail the person to the dock. "Yan Suzhi paused for a moment, then smiled vaguely, and whispered," Is it a bit dark? In fact, this is already my beautification After a hundred times the result, I found that ... even if I told you honestly, I couldn't tell you what was too dark. "

"At that time, the brain was almost venting, and I thought of countless ideas. But ..." Yan Suizhi sighed softly.

Gu Yan could feel that he held the corner of his mouth and seemed to still want to try to say things as usual, not so carelessly, even with a slight smile. But the corner of his mouth slowly closed back, "That should not be what the two of them want to see ..."

"Look, I can't do anything with my parents. It's been over ten years since I passed away. I still don't want them to see those ..."

He fell silent again, and after a while hummed again, whispered: "As if they can still see."

He actually ... always felt that he was not a good person.

But in the short and long ten years, he tried to live according to his parents ’blessings, did not do too much outrageous things, did not indulge in meaningless things, funded some welfare orphanages, helped some help People, insist on some justice that may not be painful.

Then he suddenly realized that these things had been etched into the bone blood unconsciously.

This was probably left to him by his parents.

"I stayed alone in the house for three days, and finally decided to make a defense of innocence." Yan Suizhi said.

He made a decision, but he was not happy.

Because he will send Karl Lu to court.

"I didn't have a good idea at the time, I didn't want to live too happy, I hope someone could scold me a few words. It should be ... Borrow someone else's mouth, vent it." Yan Suizhi smiled again, "I can't say it. What kind of psychology. "

That's why his attitude was particularly abrupt, and he spoke a variety of **** on the outside, straightforward and sharp, like a recalcitrant, a disregard for justice, and money and results.

Then, as he wished, when he was at his lowest point, most people were scolding him, punishing the penalties, and even including some deliberate harm.

What was the scene at that time, it was hard to imagine.

I don't want him to think about it in detail.

"I saw an unpublished report, saying that later Karl Lu was put on the dock again, and you went to that trial." Gu Yan Shen Sheng started the topic.

Yan Suizhi: "Well."

Karl Lu was later involved in the case again. At that time, Yan Suizhi had investigated him for a while and anonymously voted for the police.

At that time, the cases involved were larger, the evidence was more, and no loopholes should be found.

"I checked a lot of things during that time. Unfortunately, I still couldn't find direct evidence to prove that he was directly related to the death of my parents. But the result of that trial was pretty good. For the plaintiff, it is an acceptable result. "Yan Suizhi said.

On the day of the trial, he went alone, entered the courtroom at the beginning of the trial, sat quietly in the last row, quietly listened to the conviction of Karl Lu, and then quietly left.

It was his 27th birthday.

He still remembers that on the tenth birthday, the beautiful and gentle lady at home was holding a dynamic camera and teased him with a smile, and the hibiscus in the courtyard painted by him was slightly shaken by the wind. It's as clear as it just passed.

However, he has been walking alone for 12 years.

Twelve years seemed to be short, and passed in a blink of an eye.

Sometimes it looks extra long.

"I sometimes think that it would be better if I found more evidence. Maybe my parents can also look at that court trial." Yan Suizhi was quiet for a while, and added: "But this is actually a fallacy. Because the defendant paid his life, the real squinting is actually me. The people under the tombstone have been sleeping for so long, and you can still see it. "

Gu Yan suddenly understood why he always washed his hands.

Just like he would deliberately attract people to scold him when he was most sad.

He has been alone for too many years, and is used to taking all the problems to himself. When he is not satisfactory, he will be a little disgusted. Before everyone nails himself on the dock, he accuses himself, Sentence yourself.

But no matter what the punishment, he will always stand upright because the road is still long, he still has to walk alone for a long time ...

There was a silence in the room. After a while, Yan Suizhi heard Gu Yan murmured, "At least I can see it."

He froze for a moment, slightly letting go of his body. He saw Gu Yan's eyes covered with light under the night and looked at him dullly.

Then he felt that his hand was being held. The water marks that had just been washed had already dried up, and it also stained Gu Yan's body temperature, but it was still cooler than Gu Yan's palm.

He saw Gu Yan lower his eyes and kissed his index finger slightly ...

Then the middle finger, ring finger, little finger ...

Gu Yan kissed them one by one, and every time they touched, Yan Sui's heart would soften softly, and in the end, it would be so soft.

He curled his fingers and said to Gu Yan, "Look up."

Yan Suizhi leaned over and kissed his chin, then the corner of his mouth, and finally his lips.

...

The night is warm and the stream is like water,

The countless birthday greetings before him sounded in his mind countless times: We hope that you will always be carefree, do not experience any pain, do not grow specially, do not need to understand those complicated and contradictory things, do not need to make troublesome choices ...

Yan Suizhi closed his eyes and kissed Gu Yan, and finally gave an answer after 28 years—

I'm sorry, I don't seem to be able to do all of what you want. Fortunately, the luck was good, I met a person.

So don't worry, we will be fine.