Tong Man didn't know where she was going, she just felt that continuing to stay in the same place with Tan Rui made her feel suffocated. In fact, she had long turned her love into a deep pain, and that pain was deeply buried in her heart. She thought she was hiding it deeply, but even if it was a cold body, it would still trigger the pain again.

She turned into a seemingly lively bar casually, and someone came up to talk to her, but she did not refuse.

But ah, even a man's body temperature is only temporary. There is no way to relieve the cold radiating from the depths of the soul.

After she got dressed, she turned and left the hotel, and met Tan Rui, who had buttoned the wrong clothes on the street. He grabbed her and snarled, "Where have you been?!"

Tong Man took away his hand and continued to walk forward as if he hadn't seen him. Tan Rui chased after him, as if a little frustrated: "Are you listening to me? You—"

"Hey! Miss!"

Tong Man looked back and saw that it was the man who had stood with her one night - if only a few hours of physical entanglement could be called a one night stand. She looked at the man blankly, but Tan Rui looked at her and then at the man. When the man saw Tan Rui, he was a little embarrassed and asked Tong Man, "Do you have a boyfriend?"

Tong Man shook his head.

The man laughed again and shook the phone he had been holding in his hand and asked Tong Man: "Are you interested in leaving a phone call with each other? We can meet again in the future, like today...you know."

Tong Man waved his hand: "No need."

After speaking, she lifted Tan Rui's hand from her wrist and continued on the way home. The rejected man is very gentlemanly. One-night stand is about you and me. If both parties are willing, it’s okay to develop into a long-term friend. But for the moment, although he is very satisfied with Tongman, Tongman has no interest in him.

Tan Rui stood there for more than a minute before he realized what the two of them were doing. His heart became futile and he couldn't believe that Tong Man was ruining herself like this. Angrily chased him up again, and grabbed Tong Man's shoulders: "Stop! You can explain it clearly to me! What is going on?!"

"Is it hard to understand?" Tong Man glanced at him. "It's just a one-night stand."

"How can you treat yourself like this?! What about your self-esteem? Your—"

"You have a girlfriend and you did it with me, you are not qualified to say me." Tong Man's body began to tremble slightly, she didn't understand, why is it so cold? Reached out and pushed Tan Rui, who was in front of him, too high to push, she had no choice but to bypass him and move forward.

Tan Rui was stunned for a long time, and Tong Man's words seemed to hit somewhere in his heart. Now he himself didn't know why he was bewitched by Tongman, and even slept with Tongman. Perhaps a person can deceive himself and others, but the body's reaction is unavoidable. He still has nostalgia for Tongman's body-if it's just pure guilt, then it can't be like this, is it?

Tan Rui closed his eyes, he felt confused and he needed to think about it. When he regained his senses and wanted to chase Tong Man, Tong Man's figure had long disappeared from his sight.

No car, no money, nothing on her body, Tong Man walked aimlessly, her eyes blurred, and everything around her was very familiar. She was touched because she finally had a home, and she had a loving and caring husband, maybe There will be a lovely child in the future. But then there was nothing. It was just a self-righteous dream. In the dream, she was the only one indulged in it, and everyone else was watching, smiling, and watching with cold eyes. When she broke free from the dream, they ridiculed her.

Tong Man was tired as she walked. She saw a park not far away, so she walked in and found a bench to sit and rest. She... looked around in a vague look, and was suddenly attracted by the abnormal movement in the grass not far away.

Tong Man is not a person who is so curious, but the voice in her heart tells her that she must go and take a look.

So she followed the call from the bottom of her heart and walked over, keeping her steps very lightly. The people inside may or may not hear it, but it doesn't matter. Because Tongman only saw the dismembered corpses all over the lawn. The most frightening thing was that the person didn't seem to have died yet. The man opened his mouth and stared at Tongman, looking surprised. , But very pleasantly surprised. If you carefully identify the shape of your mouth, you should be saying please help me.

Tong Man stood there and looked for a while, then turned and left.

The next day she saw the bold and bold headline in the social version: Broken corpses were found in the park, and the deceased suffered horrible torture in their lifetime! ! ! Also brought three exclamation marks. Tongman's salary is not much every month, and she basically spends nothing except paying for electricity, so she uses it to subscribe to newspapers. No matter what newspaper she ordered, she would not necessarily read it, just want to order it.

Then she will throw away the accumulated newspaper mountain.

Tan Rui never came after that day, and Tong Man didn't want him to come. In all fairness, she still loves him. When she saw him, her heart was still beating, but Tongman could not understand why Tan Rui had to obtain her forgiveness. She would never forgive them, and they would not need her. forgive.

In fact, she has nothing to blame Tan Rui. It was a fair deal at all. She was passionate and thought it was a good marriage, so she wanted to manage it. Tan Rui respected her and didn't tell her. In fact, it was her parents who took his money and sold her-no, it was "married" and married Tan Rui. Although Tongman didn't see the money, the truth is here.

Sadly, Tan Rui wanted to marry her because she and Yan Lan looked very similar. His beloved woman left him, so he was sad and didn't know what to do, and accidentally saw her like a god. On the one hand, I wanted to find comfort, on the other hand, I wanted to let myself forget about Yan Lan, so I came to discuss with her parents about marrying her.

No one asked Tongman anything from beginning to end, but Tongman agreed without even thinking about it, because she had known Tan Rui's existence a long time ago and had a crush on him. She never dreamed that she would have a dream come true one day, so she couldn't see this beautiful paradise on earth, which was the boneless Asura hell.

She put herself in this terrible relationship, ridiculously wanting a good ending. She hoped that her parents would treat her better besides loving her brother, and hope that Tan Rui would like her a little more-she didn't know how she would become like this in the future.

At that time, I was kind to the world, full of confidence in myself, and yearning for the future married life, hit my head and was reluctant to let go.

Even if she knew that Yanlan was back, even if she knew that Tan Rui's heart was no longer with her - no, Tan Rui's heart had never been with her. All she has to do is return Tan Rui to Yan Lan-isn't it that simple thing? But Tongman couldn't bear it.

The consequence of her reluctance is that Tan Rui is willing to help her.

Tongman will never forget that late night two years ago. On their way back from their parents’ home, Yan Lan learned that Tan Rui was going to completely separate her from her and cut her wrists and committed suicide. Tan Rui got the news on the way, but did not dare to tell the truth with Tong Man, so she asked her to get off and take a taxi. Go back and say that the company has a problem with a big case.

Tan Rui didn't know her at all, so she didn't know that her hearing was so good. In the passenger seat, she heard clearly.

Then she got out of the car and he left.

Perhaps he returned to the place to look for her after realizing that she had not returned home, but it was too late, and she was no longer the Tongman she used to be. The Tongman who was able to dig out his heart and give it to Tan Rui completely died that night, and replaced by Tongman whose heart was like dead water.

How can one person do this for another person? From beginning to end, she was a cannon fodder from beginning to end, as if her appearance was just to adjust the relationship between Tan Rui and Yan Lan. The more she didn't leave Tan Rui, the more others felt that Tan Rui was more romantic than Jin Jian, and she...and she was the one who coveted Tan Rui and occupied the position of Tan Rui's wife.

Tongman has been reflecting on her mistakes for a long time, and she felt that she was wrong from the beginning. She shouldn't be so stupid that she didn't find the clues in her life, she shouldn't be so stupid that she would not even face the reality of Tan Rui's occasional name.

Actually, he thought he knew her, and the things he thought she liked were not what she liked, but what Yan Lan liked. They have similar faces, so she naturally made the world's most perfect stand-in.

She thought he likes dignified and gentle women-it is not the case. Tan Rui likes Yanlan, not Yanlan's type of woman.

Tong Man hugged herself tightly, no one in the world could give her warmth, no.

Before she knew it, she fell asleep on the sofa again. There was darkness in her sleep, with only the sound of blood flowing. The soul dwells quietly on the ground, she feels as if she is flying, flying higher and higher, flying higher and higher, flying all the way to the sky, looking down through the clouds, seeing so many people happy, and then in the dark is her own whispering whisper .

A doorbell awakened Tong Man. She slowly put on her slippers and opened the door.

Outside the door is Yan Lan.

She is holding a bunch of flowers in her arms and wearing a white woolen coat. Even if her faces are similar, no one will admit the two of them wrong. Especially now that Tong Man is wrapped up like a bear, his face is pale and his hair is messy, while Yan Lan is generous, they don't look alike at all, right?

"Uh...I'm coming here uninvited. I wonder if it disturbed you?" Yan Lan asked nervously.

She speaks in a very nice voice, softly and softly.

Tong Man opened the door with his hand, and Yan Lan came in with the flowers, still a little nervous and said, "I don't know what flowers you like, so I bought lilies...Are you okay?"

She looked at the living room, there were mountains of newspapers, an air conditioner, a sofa, nothing else. There is no telephone, no TV, no entertainment facilities, it seems that Tongman lives here with the air.

Yan Lan bit her lip and said to Tong Man: "I want to apologize to you..."

"Apologize?" Tong Man shook his head. "Nothing to apologize."

"It's me and Tan Rui who have done too much." Yan Lan looked at Tong Man sincerely, "I really hope you can forgive us, otherwise we can't be together at all, neither of us can get out of our hearts. Dao Kaner..."

Tong Man knelt on the sofa and wrapped himself in a quilt: "You won, that's why you feel guilty. If I were still with Tan Rui, you would only wish to kill me."

"I haven't thought about it that way--" Yan Lan hurriedly defended.

"Pity, guilt, these are things that only winners have." Tong Man said sternly. "If you are here to say this, you don't have to. I don't intend to ask you anything."

Yan Lan opened her mouth, and she could see that Tong Man didn't really want to listen to her, so she closed her mouth a little embarrassingly, and was about to get up to leave when she saw Tan Rui came in with a plastic bag. The two of them met in Tongman's territory, and both found it incredible.

"Why are you here?"

"Why are you here?"

The two asked in unison, and they felt guilty and embarrassed after they had asked. It turned out that the two of them, one said that there was something urgent to deal with today, and the other said that they had to work overtime, and they both pushed dinner, but all they thought was that they came to Tongman!

I just happened to meet it!

Tong Man wrapped the quilt and watched the two meet, his eyes were flat and he didn't feel the slightest touch.

"Uh, the public security in this community is not very good recently. A homicide occurred in a small park not far away. Tongman lives here alone. I don't think it is safe. So I want to ask someone to help her install a set of surveillance equipment. "Tan Rui first explained, "What about you? What are you doing here?"

"I... just want to talk to Tong Man, I am also very worried about her mental condition." Yan Lan said, walking to Tan Rui's side and holding one of his arms, but Tan Rui was a little stiff at the moment. He didn't respond to her and didn't look at her, as if-dare not.

Tong Man listened to the two of them with his ears in his ears. He didn't smile or answer. After a while, he said, "You can go now. You don't need to take care of my business."

"How can we care about your business?" Yan Lan was anxious, "We made you like this. In any case, I can't just watch you fall--"

Who has fallen? Tong Man thought. She is not degenerate, she is just-trying to accept her own destiny life, is this also wrong?

"Okay, don't say it." Tan Rui pulled Yanlan's hand, put the plastic bag on her hand in front of Tong Man, told her that it was food, let her eat it while it was hot, and then joined hands with Yanlan left.

You see, they are all like this, in her life, coming and going at will, as if she would always stand quietly and serve them. Tong Man looked at the bag in front of him coldly, without the urge to eat, but hid his head and continued to sleep.

Tan Rui needs work, and Yanlan also needs work. Neither of them can come to her anytime and anywhere, so Tong Man spent a few quiet days, during which the security company came to her to install surveillance, but she closed the door. Nothing, as if I didn't hear it. Later, whether it was Tan Rui or Yanlan, she pretended not to know, did not open the door or responded, and did not answer the phone when it rang. Tong Man really doesn't understand what these two people want, it doesn't matter if she wants her to say something to them?

Maybe, maybe she would say it before, but she doesn't now. Since we don't owe each other, there is no sorry and it's okay. That's it. If you want to leave, just turn around and walk away. You don't need to tell me or ask for my understanding. Because as long as I still love you for one day, I will never be able to forgive you.

The cold winter gradually passed, and slowly, Tong Man waited until spring.

In the season when everything is reviving, the willow trees on the street have sprouts, the grass is fresh and green, and everything looks so vibrant. Everyone on the street is busy with life, everyone is alive and well, and everyone is not cold. It's even less cold when the spring sun hits the body. When the men and women on the street are all wearing spring clothes, Tongman is still wrapped in thick down jackets. The degree to which she is afraid of the cold is surprising, but she never said why.

One day Tongman’s cell phone rang. She looked at the number on it. It was her mother's call. Then she picked it up. Her mother, who had never contacted her, took the initiative to look for her. Of course it was not because she missed her or worried about her. She still has some use value.

The virgin mother cried and told Tong Man that her brother had enlarged the belly of a female classmate at school, and the female classmate’s family had come to their home to make trouble, and they had to lose money. For the sake of his son's reputation, the virgin mother and the virgin father naturally hope to chat privately, otherwise it would not look good to start a lawsuit and come to the two families, but the other lion opened his mouth and asked for 700,000 hush money!

Tong Man said: "Aren't you rich? Two years ago, Tan Rui gave you a million betrothal gift and just used it out to compensate others."

The virgin mother immediately retorted, "How can I do it? I have already deposited the dead date in the bank!"

"What do you want?"

"You go to Tan Rui again. Didn't he still pay you alimony after you divorced? Go and ask him if he wants more and lose the money for your brother. The rest will be added to what we have. It's just right. It can be enough for him to buy a house in city A! Don’t you know, what good house can you buy for a million? It’s too difficult to get a little closer to the center of the city. Up!"

Tong Man thought to himself, I didn't divorce Tan Rui, how can I ask someone for alimony? But he said: "He won't give me money, he has a very good girlfriend now."

As soon as the virgin mother on the other end of the phone heard it, she suddenly lost her anger and said, "Tell me about you, what use is there for you? I can’t do things since I was young, and I’m not diligent. I finally got admitted to a good university. Just get married, get married, and you can't catch a man's heart! You can't catch a man's heart, how much money you want! You don't even want money! You give me Tan Rui's number, and I will tell him! "

Tong Man hung up the phone directly, and then stood in a daze. She did all the work at home when she was very young, and my younger brother never stretched out his hand. Today, my younger brother can't even use a water heater! After graduating from university, she was originally planning to find a job, but her mother directly accepted Tan Rui's money to let her get married, but now from her mother's words, it seems that Tongman deserves everything!

She has begun to wonder what is right and what is wrong. Who is right and who is wrong?

This is her fate.

Tongman didn't answer the phone calls from home anymore. At first they made a lot of calls, but then they stopped calling. Tongman didn't want to know how they were. Not long after, Tan Rui came to her and found out that she had lost weight again and said, "Did you not eat on time again?"

Tong Man ignored him, but saw his mobile phone lit up. Tan Rui was holding it in his hand but didn't answer it. Instead, he immediately hung up. Then he looked at Tong Man with a guilty expression, as if he was afraid of being caught by her. Know who the call is like. Tong Man suddenly asked: "My mother called you?"

Before Tan Rui had time to react, Tong Man instantly understood: "Ask you for money? How much?"

Tan Rui's lips moved: "Two million."

Tong Man laughed. She really found it ridiculous and sad. She smiled and tears fell, "Two million, it turns out that my alimony is so much, nothing more, you brought the divorce agreement. Do you? I’ll sign it for you. After signing, you can go. Don’t give them any more money. It’s a bottomless pit and you will never be satisfied."

"We cannot divorce for the time being."

"What?" Tong Man was taken aback for a moment.

"I..." Tan Rui seemed a little hard to say, "I don't know."

"Do not know what is this?"

Tan Rui shook his head and said nothing. Those unspeakable feelings and doubts took root in his heart. From the night when he could not refuse Tong Man, from that day when he saw Tong Man’s relationship with other men, these emotions were strange and familiar. Had it on Yan Lan.

In the end, he tentatively asked: "You said, is it possible for one person to fall in love with two people at the same time?"

Hearing this, Tong Man seemed to hear some big joke: "If this is the case, it is not appropriate for you to use love. You should ask, is it possible for one person to have desires for two people at the same time? That is not love. ."

"It's greedy."

After finishing speaking, Tong Man muttered softly: "Married a red rose, and over time, the red one became a smear of mosquito blood on the wall, and the white one was still the moonlight before the bed; the white one was the clothes when he married a white rose. A grain of rice sticks on the top, but the red one is a cinnabar mole on the heart." (Note)

Then she asked: "It doesn't matter whether you like the red rose or the white rose. Which one you lost is your favorite."

"No, it's not like this..."

Tong Man watched him stand up hurriedly and fled, reaching out and grabbing Tan Rui's trousers: "Don't give them money."

"what?"

"Don't give them any more money. Please come back immediately if you have given them. Don't tell them that we haven't divorced yet, otherwise they will only look at me." Tong Man asked. "If you really feel a little guilty for me, please leave my house alone."

Tan Rui stood there, silent for a while.